I am Alive

Hey guys,

I am sure no one would have visited my blog from last 4 months because even i didn't visit it :D but just wanted to share that i am alive and so is my blog :) ....i will be back to regular blogging soon (from next monday probably)

There is a hell lot to share ..something good..something not so good....what i have achieved and what is yet to be achieved.

The changes that have taken place, the friends who got married and who are planing to :P

So please be with me :)

P.S : I just bought Canon SX 110 :) and might just start with a photo blog of mine :)

Tag # 1

This is my first tagged post and I don't know what am I supposed to write. Anyways Sakshi tagged me here in her one of the post and since I don't have any girl friend, the kind of narcissistic person I am,I would strictly try to keep this tag to myself and as funny as possible :

All you have to do, is write down something significant about yourself next to each number one to ten.

1 -- No of times i have been tagged till now and this is the only one :)
One is also the no. of college i have studied in - IIT Delhi :)

2 -- Number of blogs I write (other being less frequent)

3 -- No of broken bones I had till now (Right hand,Left hand's ring finger,left ankle)

4 -- Number of memorable years @ IIT D

5 -- Number of times i have drunk beer :)

6 -- Number of guy in my friend circle in school as well as college (never had any girl around :P )

7 -- My lucky no. !! Its attached to almost everything in my life.

8 -- Number of grueling semesters at IIT, where exams used to visit us thrice in every semester

9 -- Number of blogs I am following anonymously :)

10 -- Number of digits in my mobile no. :D

Finalllyyy i have completed the tag and it took a lot of hard work to think about all the above points.

Now I am forwarding the tag to Smriti, Akansha,Hadez,Dev D & Yamini


P.S : This was a tough one, kindly tag me simpler ones from now :)

I have been quite busy with the work hence couldn't write, I do read the blogs so keep blogging :)

New Love

Just realized that I'm in love with Shreya Ghosal's voice :)

Listening some sweet songs ..even in office

..suggest some if you know !!!

sponti - 2

Continuing the habit of spontaneous lines, here are some, I had thought of lately :

1) Studies and Relationships, both requires 100% commitment !! (rest you can infer yourself) :

2) A group of girls are always attractive irrespective of any individual's "beauty" !!

3) Bad things always happen to good people because good people never see good things !!

---- To be continued----

P.S : can any one help me to add proper smiley as seen in YM on my blog ?

Continued....

In continuation of the previous blog, here are some of the reactions from different IIT's students on one of this site : http://www.zeenews.com/states/2009-03-22/517086news.html

• What is most astonishing is the way the administration tried to curb the movement of the students. The internet and the LAN in the college had also been cut off. The news article presents a one sided view of the police force & the administration. -Student - IIT Kharagpur
• This news is totally one sided. It seems that you have pictured students as some kind of criminals. The students didn`t go ballistic as first response. The protests were made when the management took the issue lightly. What exactly did you mean by ``The Director and his family members were safe`` did you think that students are gonna hurt the directer and his family. -Student - IIT Kharagpur - Kharagpur
• Director responded pathetically to the situation.He was making fun of the situation.Institute put a lan ban on the students to prevent them from letting the world know the true news .The condition of B.C.ROY Hospital is pathetic .Last year also a student died due to negligence of the authorities.When students went to talk to the director ,he thought we just wanted a holiday .He talked in an insulting language ```I appreciate your presence and sympathize with everyone here` - director with a smile on his face.then the students protested and made him resign -Arpan Kumar De - IIT KHARAGPUR

This is a site of IIT Kgp, rather a news paper..... http://scholarsavenue.targetiit.com/

Reading the article on the above site, I can just say "Fuck IIT System"

:-| :-( :'(

I was here to write something good that i have been feeling from last 3-4 days but then i read the exact news of what had happened to the IIT Kgp student who died a week back and things changed..here is the true story, the one that would never reach to media or out of IIT Kgp by any other means except IIT's students itself...read on

http://grassonfire.blogspot.com/2009/03/rohit-kumar-will-be-remembered.html

This is only one of the reaction of 100's of IITians :

http://antiquiti.blogspot.com/2009/03/iit-kgp-grease-monkey-ed.html

And as an Ex-IITian , I can believe that coz its exactly this way, students die and the gods at IIT cover it up. I have seen that when a junior of mine committed suicide and everything was covered up right then and there.

I don't know what else to write about this coz I hated IIT admin and still do, it is inefficient and "chalta hai" attitude !!

To learn from the mistake, one needs to accept the mistake and the arrogant IIT systems never does that !!!

Not so good days

I don't why but I am forgetting my own ideologies and rules..

........feeling insecure about things which I never wanted;
........feeling frustrated about the fact that my existence / non-existence wont affect anyone, in spite of knowing that I don't compare myself or my life with anyone else;
........trying hard to keep myself busy with work & studies even though I know I enjoy the both
........I am in a process to hate people / love / relationships and I was the one telling every one that life is too short to hate anything
........the loneliness and solitude that once was a source of inspiration is killing me these days

I have 100s of reasons to make mistakes but i am still holding on to make none...!!!

Sponti - 1

More then thinking about "what's the right thing to do", we spend more time thinking "what's not the right thing to do" and hence we assume that everything we have done is right

P.S : I am not frequent to blogging because I am not in a right frame of mind to write positive things

P.P.S : Sponti stands for Spontaneous, and since I am going through a series of thoughts every second I might end up making a century of these spontaneous lines :)

My Take : Two

Those who had read this blog of mine may or may not have been waiting for the complete discussion but last Sunday while I was wondering here and there, something clicked me which according to me is an analogy to what I believe about love :

Love is like a TV set with several channels of Care, Romance, Understanding, Support, Fights etc, but still TV is a TV you can't say set of channels as your TV similarly Love is love, you can't call all the characteristics of love as love in itself.

P.S : I am sure its bit confusing but can't help it :P

Freedom

Freedom is not worth having if it does not connote freedom to err. It passes my comprehension how human beings, be they ever so experienced and able, can delight in depriving other human beings of that precious right.

--By Mahatma Gandhi

Cricket !!!

Not a post that many of you would like to read but still I couldn't resist. I just saw Today's match b/w india and new zealand and there was just one thing going in my mind :

Cricket is a religion and Sachin is its God !!!

And for all those Journalists / News Makers and Critics, please don't ever doubt the guy, he is an awesome person and a 100% committed professional.

I hope I would have the same passion for my profession when I reach that level in my career.

P.S : Does any one know if the biography of sachin is available in market, if yes what is its name ?  

There is a lot I can learn from the person :) 

Take : One

I have a new wallpaper on my desktop and it goes like this :

"For everything you have missed, you gained something else; And for everything you gain, you lose something else.It is about you outlook towards life, you can either regret or rejoice"

My take : One regrets or rejoices depends on the priorities one has for the things that are being gained or lost.

Leave your comments.

Conclusion of the Day !!!

I would write in detail some time later but this is what was concluded from the discussion I had with my friends today : 

1) People fall in love more then once but only after they complete "Moving on" phase i.e the same mistake is "Committed" twice or more :P

2) Love just happens and you can't do anything about it, surprisingly most of us can't figure out when and how it happened

P.S : I strongly disagree  to the point 2 and would present my view on it in a separate post, please drop your thoughts about the same !!!

God !!!

I am currently in office and reading many random blogs and I'm here to share what I felt after reading all these blogs :

Difference is the only similarity God created in all of us, respect the differences and life would be a peaceful journey :)

A man in a Air Conditioned car may be richer then the beggar on the road but he might not be tougher then him to live on street in a chilly winter or a hot summer & luckily I respect both....

Friends

Somehow feeling senti about the word "Friend / Friends" so writing the very same thing I wrote on my other blog : 

Friends are not those who are there when you need them......
Friends are those who are there when you don't want anyone to be !!!

As a universal friend there is just onething I learnt, always have more then one best friend, it gives you a liberty of not to depend on just one person.

P.S : This is one of the very few blog I have published from my home :)

Birthday Blog !!!

Yup yup, you guessed it right, today is my Happy Birthday and officially I am 18 now :P , unofficially still 12 :)

I thought it would be just another day since I know just handful of 5-10 individuals in Hyderabad and none of them remembers my Birthday; but when one keeps his expectations low, everything that comes in the way is cherished and same has happened with me. Had i thought that I don't have anyone who would wish me by person, I would have get sad but on the other hand I expected just 2-3 calls hence every call I am getting is making me happier and even though I don't have Birthday celebration plans, I still feel very comfortable and not sad at all.

The benefits of living away from the home and friends is that they try everything to make your day special and expresses lots of love and care which always gives a good feeling, and everyone exactly did that :)

I did remove my Birthday from orkut just to make sure that everyone is not compelled to wish me and also that I don't have to treat 100's of people :P but still enough people surprised me among them were my school friends :)

The sad part is I still had to come to office and have to stay here as long as I am supposed to even though I'm just busy writing blogs. I have no plans after my office, may be just a normal dinner and more conversations with the friends who would have woke up late only to find that 21st January is about to end !!!

Thanks in advance for your wishes !!!

P.S : I am trying to update my birthday on orkut and now it is not co-operating !!!

Chemical Lochaa !!

When was the last time you heard the same two words and the context in which they were used !!!

I am sure you know the answer and if you don't; then leave it and continue to read :)

Anyways, what I am going to write is a long awaited post and delay got even more because I couldn't think of a simpler name for the post since the content is going to be lot more complicated and confusing.

Lets take it this way, "Chemical Locha" in some movie referred to a state of mind when Munna Bhai could see and feel "Baapu" when other were not able to and as per my learning/observations/experiences, its same with us.

Everything we feel and do is a state of our mind but we are in so deep control of our mind that we see what our mind wants us to see, we feel what we should feel, we act the way our mind wants to act be it right or wrong coz we are only told one of them by our mind.

We get sad when we fail at something, we get over excited when we achieve something, why don't we accept failure and just argue with ourselves that we didn't deserve it !! Why is it that exams are always taken as a difficult part ? We want to sleep till late because its a chilly morning, we want to stay awake late coz we want to celebrate new year at 12, is chilly morning on 31st December colder then night of the same day ??

Other side of chemical locha is that,most of us underestimate ourselves and we give up before trying our best for it and more or less the reason is "fear of loosing", a preoccupied state of our mind. Why do we always pursue things which we feel we would be good at, why don't we do pursue something which we don't have any idea about, coz if we are good we would be good at everything, why do we believe that we can't be better then the people we admire or the great people we look up to. No one is born genius; everyone learns, acquires and develops skills, why can't each one us give a try to be better then the best rather then giving up at the very start.

The last form of Chemical Locha is fairly complicated and I am sure most of you would disagree but since Controversy exists every where so let it be here too

We do believe that some individuals have higher mental strength / toughness then others and what we refer here is the strength to control our temptations or to over come our addictions and also at times the strength one needs to survive in tough painful times , but does this strength also come into picture when we talk of human emotions, isn't a girl's insecurity or a guy's urge for sex a state of mind and can be controlled ? I personally believe that the emotional imbalance that co-exists in our day to day life is nothing but a subconscious state of mind coz we know what's right for us yet we act the way we are supposed to.... the question is why and answer is yet to be discovered !!!

P.S : I am having free time in office and the tradition to blog from office continues :)

Random Facts !!!

What I am about to write is a random observation of mine and not directed to any single person, so don't get offended by anything.

Secondly, I need a help from any fellow blogger because I always have so many topics to write on and as soon as I sit to write, its all blank. Can any one help , suggest some better way ?

Now, as the topic suggests this is about some arbit and stupid facts/observations which I have noticed in past 4-5 years :-

1 - A girl always like to have a female pet be it a dog,cat,parrot etc --- Don't know why ??

2 - "A lot can happen over a cup of coffee" -- tag line of Cafe Coffee Day !!

3 - Every employed person is unhappy with the job no matter how high paying it is, yet no one quits a job for nothing

4 - Happiness is not an Explicit function,it is a function of a function with happiness as an independent variable

5 - Intelligence is a inherited character and is not a function of college or a field of study

6 - Human mind never argues with itself, it only convinces where as it always argues with others and doesn't convince -- Conclusion : Every one has a hypocrite with in them !!!

7 - We make our own rules, we break them for our own reason and still blame others !!!

8 - If all men are dogs then all girls are bitches !!!

9 - All girls are the same and same goes for the boys !!!

10 - "Future Perfect tense" and "Present continuous tense" can never go side by side !!!

P.S : Some of the facts are too complicated to understand so please don't get into the roots of the origin of these facts !!! :)

Nappy Yew Hear - 2009

After writing the previous post, I set down again and wanted to write something more about 2008 but then didn't..reason..well I checked out almost all the blogs I have on my page & found one thing in common, everyone had written one blog in last one week and I didn't want to break the rules so I restricted myself to one for the week only :D

And yesterday while I was getting bored at home, I read some of the blogs and figured out that most of us are too excited to write on the 1st Jan , don't know why !!! May be because we believe what ever we do on first day of the year is carried to everyday for the rest of year and may be that's why I didn't write coz I expect everyday for the rest of the year to be different for me :D

Lets cut the crap and wish you a very happy and a prosperous new year, I hope you had a fantastic first day of the year and already making plans for rest of the year but case was not the same with me. I didn't do much except surfing through you tube, playing games, reading any arbit stuff and more importantly spent a significant amount of time to personalize my blog yet again and hopefully a new and a improved blog (looks wise) would be out in next couple of days :-)

Once that is done, I am sure I would write more meaningful blogs than this !!!

Wish you all a very happy new year once again and best wishes for the future !!!

P.S : My manager asked my to change my habit of leaving "!!!" at the end of sentences :)