The Day that was !!! :-)

I know you are smart enough to notice the difference between the tittle of previous post and this post !! But infact there is far more difference between the two posts rather then just the tittle, yesterday i was least enthusiastic about my work and today I was keen to work from the very beginning ,though I didn't, but ya its 7:45 in the eve and I am still in the office and I was working b4 writing this post. Today I'm feeling far more energetic and fresh then i was yesterday, and the main difference between yesterday and today was my attitude, yesterday I was confused and today I am far more clear in my thought process.While yesterday most of my time passed by doing nothing, today I tried to do everything right which could help me in over coming my problem.

I finally figured out my problem with the CAT's english and why I do blunders, so I hope I would improve on from here :-) I had a long talk with one of my oldest friend and felt really nice after that, it gave me lots of positive energy and it felt like things are automatically falling into the place. I had a nice sleep, a nice lunch and hopefully a nice dinner is waiting for me :D

I am not very excited but certainly I am more relaxed and I know what I am doing and what i need to do for the rest of day and more importantly I know how I will manage that. I read couple of blogs today and even though they were full of hatred and shear frustration , i could still comment to the blogger to think positive and to see positive side of everything. I read this blog and couldn't understand two things, firstly ...are people so frustrated with their lives that they enjoy reading articles/blogs which feeds them with more negative energy and secondly....is our life and surrounding so bad that we literally hate it !!! (( thirdly, why people comment only on a girl's blog :P ))

Anyways, my views towards life are completely opposite, I value everything that's there in my surrounding,I love myself and everything I do. I believe life is not about complaining and hating things, its about accepting the things they are, its about being flexible enough to adjust in every situation. Life gives you enough challenges and opportunities that if you value them and actually make them count, you would never complain about life being boring. We love far more people then we hate, then why do we need to think about later ones !!! Life is too short to hate some one or regret something, its about keeping a broad smile on the face and making everyone feel the same. Stay Happy and Keep others happy is my philosophy and would write more about it in an another blog.

I would end this post with one of my favourate line :

"World is a beauty-full place to live and we can make it even better only if we can see the beauty part of it"

The Day that Wasn't -- 29th July !!!!

I had been thinking of writing about my "yesterday" from last 1 n half hour but as always, didn't know where to start from ...!!

Let me give another try... couple of things to start with , Firstly Its true that Blogging is an "Addiction" and I agree with that person who said this, I am saying this because its not even 12 hours when i wrote my previous blog and now sitting in my office I'm writing one more, don't know why but it really feels good !!!! Secondly,the tittle of the post is inspired from the show hosted by Cyrus Broacha which gets aired every sunday @ 10:30 in the morning on CNN IBN, the real name being the week that wasn't !!!

((This tittle might be repeated many a times in the future ))

Anyways,My day started with least enthusiasm, its been raining in hyd from last 3-4 days n since i love the rain, i didn't really feel like going to work but since college life is not as same as so called " Professional life", i got ready and reached office only to find out that my team leader or rather mentor is not present in the office and even though i could have worked on something, I just kept reading documents which were far more boring. You know this was one of those days when sitting idle was more tiring then working, so i got bored whole day and kept thinking about something which made me more sad and more depressed.In the mean while i read hell lot of blogs and added some nice ones to my "Blog List". By the time i got free from office, i was too tired and not in the greatest of moods to do anything substantial, so just sat in an auto and reached a place where i could walk to my house. Now a nice thing happened, there was this "bhutte" waala where i got down, so I asked him if he could get me one, so after selecting one of my choice he roasted that up by the same old traditional way, using coal and all. I handed him a 10 ruppee note and in return he gave me 9 Rs 50 Paise, knowing that the Butta cost 5 Rs each, so I just realized that he misplaced a 5 Rs coin instead of a 50 Paise coin,and then I returned him 4 Rs 50 Paise and told him to be careful for the next time !!! The incidence helped me to over come my sadness and felt a positive energy of doing something good !! I reached home, tried to study but couldnt, read news paper, and all that while I was thinking, why am i working in a field that doesn't interests me up, I know this is not the thing I want to do for long but somehow everyone asks me to be patient and continue with it till I get another opportunity. God knows when would that happen..!!!!

With not in a mood to do anything and not really feeling sleepy, I switched over to my best friend, "Internet and chatting" ; and came across this blog,I didn't find it interesting but was curious enough to ask the blogger about some interesting books which could help me in improving my english. So i switched over to gtalk in the hope that I might get some assistance or some positive response, and thank fully I got that, felt nice chatting with my first ever blog friend and some how my mood changed and I wrote this post for my blog which I think is the best one till now. Best coz its from my heart and really loved writing this one. By the time I was done with this post, i was almost asleep, so just forwarded the link to couple of friends and went to bed !!!

The day that wasn't started with a very low on energy, ended in a much needed positive way with a belief in myself that I am better ,as a person, as a friend & as a professional and there is no dead end, I just need to make my way through....!!!!

Cheers to life !!!!!!

Parents !!!!

Yeah yeah I am writing this one, and its going to be a very senti one,atleast I want it to be that way. I wanted to write on this topic from the very day I made my first blog (which even i dont remember) but some how i was always short of words or rather there was so much to write and i just couldnt...!! Anyways..let me try now....

Its a human nature that everything which we think is ours by default, we take it for granted and it applies to most of us that we take our parents for granted. One more reason may be that we are seeing them from the day we opened our eyes and we feel they are with us for ever; so no matter what we do, they will be with us and in the process we do act the way we shouldn't. We shout at them,we hurt them, we never listen to them and we say that they dont understand us.

I still remember a story about my self, it was like 11 years ago when I was done with my 7th standard,it was my summer vacations and we went to some wedding,some where in Madhya Pradesh and since traveling by bus doesn't suit my mom, so My papa,My mummy and I were coming back by train, the place where we boarded the train had a small station and only local trains with all general boggies used to hault at the place, so we boarded the train in the night around 11 PM, the boggie was almost full with hardly any vacant seats, neither was any place on the floor. But some how we three managed to find a little space on the floor to sit through the night.(Ohh I forgot to mention that I'm a mummy's boy, being younger at the home I am close to my Mom and hence neither she could let me go with my other relatives in a bus nor i wanted to go). I still remember that for the first half an hour of the journet my Papa was all standing, mummy was sitting on the floor while i was made to sit besides another uncle in the train. As the night passed by, around 12:30 or so, I was feeling sleep and asked mummy for some water and also that i want to sleep now.I don't remember how but they asked some one on the floor to give some space to me so that I can sleep as comfortably as possible. So here I sleep on the floor of a general boggie's floor over a blanket my Mom carried, with my Mom sitting beside me in a very little space she can get. It was summer and its really hot in that part of India, so a news paper was used as an artificial fan for making me feel asleep.I dont remember when i felt asleep but i surely do remember is when I woke up in the morning,my mom was still sitting at the same place with the same news paper and on the other side of me, papa was sitting with a water bottle in hand and saw me with such a gentle smile on the face as if he had the most comfortable sleep.

I was too young to understand that because for me my sleep was the only thing I had in my mind, but when I look back now,memorizing that just one night,I cant control my emotions. This was just one of the millions of times when my parents would have considered my interest first before their own.

As a young kid, we would have asked our parents about one particular thing for hundreds of times, but now even if they ask us about something for more then 3-4 times,we feel irritated. Its so easy for us to say to our parents that they dont understand us, they dont let us do the things we want to, be it pursuing a certain career, throwing a party to friends or be it just another outing ....what we dont understand is the hundreds of sacrifices they would have made to let us reach to a point in life where we are able to speak of all this.

Its so easy for all of us to say things to them be it good or be it bad but its very difficult for us to understand their feelings when they get to hear that they dont understand us. What we also dont understand is that they care for us, everything they advice is for our good,following that advice is our choice but atleast we can listen to them in turn we react in such a strange way with so much annoying faces as if they dont know anything about this world and we are the only "wise and knowledgable bonds around".Do we ever think what would happen if our parents react the same way as we do when we speak loud at them ?? would we be able to live without that care,affection and the love??

I always ask my mom not to get tensed about me since i am staying away from home, I say many a times that i can manage my things now, and the only reply i get over and over again is "I wont understand untill I become a Parent" !!!!

I believe that our parents are far far far more valuable/important then just two persons who brought us in this world and took care of us and made us reach to a position when we can take care of them.We can never ever repay what they have done for us, we can only try to but we know it that we cant...!!!! But what we can certainly do is to make them realize that we have been brought up in the best possible way and we are proud to call them as our parents, we can certainly make sure that we dont hurt them with our words, we can have the patience to listen to them and learn from them...!!!! Now when I am in a position to, i really want to make my parents' life a heaven and it doesnt matter how much I need to work for that, i will do it...!!!!

They designed our past "completely" ;now its our turn to decide how we want to design a part of their present and future ...!!!!!

Note 1 : Word "we" is being used for general category of humans and doesn't refer to a particular group of people

Note 2 : The blog is not written to hurt anyone's emotions, and a big "Sorry" if any one is hurt by the content of blog.

Note 3 : Its never too late to ask for forgiveness from parents in case you ever hurted your parents and feeling guilty about it now.

Note 4 : The blog is not written for the sake of reading,commenting and forgetting, there is a big positive motive behind it.

P.S : Exceptions do exist, and there would still be a set of people who would take this post with negative intensions !!!! God bless them all .....

"Philosophy of Inspiration"

I read the following article some where and felt like sharing it on my blog, if you can read the following text at one go with out getting bored, i am sure you have something in yourself that this blog talks about...!!!! All The Best and Enjoy :-)

Inspirational Life Quote

Those who are gifted with the power of inspirational thought get it from within themselves but it does not happen by accident. There is a method and a means to achieving this energy that can be had by anyone, no matter who you are. The power of inspirational thought comes from inside of each person no matter what their age, race, gender or personality type. All that is required is a determination to sit still and look deep inside yourself.

When most people decide to sit still and close their eyes, they see a series of thoughts and emotions flashing past their minds eye that seems virtually uncontrollable. Various ideas and thoughts may pop into your head which have absolutely no meaning and yet, you cannot stop the mind from running endlessly. As you continue to sit still and watch your thoughts and emotions, you will tend to lose track of what you are doing and get lost in your thoughts and feelings. If you manage to pay attention and watch yourself for a short period of time, you will see that you have very little control over what goes through your mind and when. Very few people can stand to sit still for very long and practice this. They tend to get bored or anxious or uncomfortable and they quickly open their eyes and go find something else to do. Why can not we sit still? What is bothering us so much that we always have to be moving around doing something each moment? DO we need more money? Do we need to talk to someone? Are we lonely or needing some form of entertainment every moment to keep ourselves happy? Very few people can actually stand to sit still with themselves and be contented. In fact, this power is something that many spiritual students strive for each day and is the source of everything that is inspirational in the world.

Inspiration to do great things comes from within but few people are actually capable of looking within themselves for any significant amount of time. Their attention is always thrown by one thought or another and they are back to doing the same old things that they have always done their entire life. If you are able to discipline yourself, however, to learn to sit still and to watch your thoughts and emotions as they pass by your minds eye, you will eventually become familiar with something very powerful deep within yourself. The energy of observation is a consciousness that exists inside of you and is actually the source of all your happiness and sadness, your joy and your anger, your fears and desires. It is the underlying source of everything you have ever experienced and it is an infinite energy which creates all the inspirational thoughts of the world.

As you devote yourself to practicing this new game, try to notice all the times when you feel like getting up and stopping this practice. Watch how your mind kicks and fights to gain control of you and to stop you from learning to be content with who you already are. Your ego does not want you to sit still and it will throw up every fear and rationalization it can invent just to get you out of your chair and back out into the rat race that you call "life". The real inspirational thoughts are the ones that come from deep inside your soul and can only be found through a lot of "soul searching". Search inside yourself each day for a certain amount of time and do not let your mind shake you from this task no matter what it may tell you is more important than this. Searching your soul is the most important thing you could ever decide to do but also the most challenging as well. Devote yourself to win at this game and you will soon discover an inspirational energy inside of you that you never knew existed. You will become one of the people who can deliver the inspirational thoughts that you have always hoped to find in other people.

For more reading check out the website : http://www.positivethinkingnow.com

Random Blog !!! --- I

"Random Blog I" , because i am sure at some point of time I would write some more blogs like this.I was thinking of renaming it to "how stupid people can get -Part I" but then I didn't,don't know why may be coz I dont know the person I am about to write about.

So while writing another blog which i would post by evening I went for my lunch break to the Mcdonalds in our cafeteria (yeah yeah !!! we have mcdonals in our office's cafeteria) and there was this guy standing in front of me in the queue, he looked fairly educated,aged around 24,single and employed in some other company,he was accompanied by some "colleague" (yeah !!!! she was a gal) and here goes the conversation between him and mcdonald guy !!!

Mr X : Give me a Mcveggie,A medium Coke,A medium french fries and some potato xyz (I cudnt hear dat xyz)

McD Guy : Sir,would you like to go for the combo meal ? you can save 13/16 Rs ??

Mr X: What will this combo meal have?

McD Guy : Mcveggie Burgey,Medium Coke and A medium french fries !!

Mr X : So it wont have the potato xyz ??

McD Guy : No,it wont be there in the meal but you can take it separately,total will cost 99 Rs !! (Meal + Potato xyz)

Mr X (In an upsetting voice just like when a kid is being told for some chocolate): No, i want that potato xyz also, give me all these separately,the way i ordered !!!

(I was looking @ Mr X and smiling,Mr X could see me smiling @ him,I try not to make Mr X look stupid,but I can't control God Please help me !!!!)

McD Guy : Ok,Sir. Here is your order, Total of 112 Rs.

McD Guy : Sir,3 mins waiting for french fries.(fills up the coke n gets burger for Mr X,reaches for the try and put the burger over it)

Mr X : Give me the coke along with french fries,not now.

(Mr X's expressions were like,if u give me the coke now it won't be chilled by the time i get french fries)

McD Guy : Ok Sir (Takes the coke back,puts near the HOT pizza mcpuff's machine)

(Mr X goes to his seat to sit with his colleague, he starts with the burger while his colleague with potato xyz,I kept smiling so was the McD guy thinking about what was going through Mr X's mind)
(Mr X comes back,takes his not so chilled coke n french fries,goes back to his seat; little amused about why was i smiling)

(I go to another seat,have my burger thinking I'l surely write a blog about this !!)

P.S - 1 : I have no hard feelings for Mr X
P.S - 2 : The Colleague was a Gulti Gal
P.S - 3 : I am writing all this while sitting in my office !!! :-) and another blog too !!!

Note : Being educated in not a Sufficient condition for a person to have common sense !!!

Last Night !!!

Wow, I seriously can't believe I am writing the blog with this tittle :D though i am sure it would be short of any "Explicit Content" !!!

For all those who expect this particular blog to be full of "ting tong" stuff (U know what i mean ;-) ), I would like to make it clear that neither did i make out with some one nor I spent last night at pub/disc/bar or else dream about some one;but ya something interesting happened, i had mood swings !!!

I came back from my office @ my regular time around 7:00 PM or so,bit tired after doing nothing much in office,had downloaded a movie couple of days back so just sat down and started with the movie "Jaane tu... yaa Jaane Na "..Since I am big fan of the work Aamir Khan does and the way he implement his ideas,I expected the movie to be fairly good. He was neither in the movie nor he was a director but this time he was a producer launching his nephew Imran Khan,but i believe it was his idea only.So the movie started with a video or rather a documentary,similar idea that he had implemented in TZP (it was in the end though) and the movie went on for 2 hrs 33 mins and i skipped my dinner :D
Now,i'm not going to narrate the story but would just add my perspective and the way i saw it.I liked the first half more the second half coz it had more lively characters with MEAOW's amazing dialogues "Fattu tu,Teri Maa,Tera Baap fattu,Tera poora khandaan and blah blah blah .....", that was awesome coz thats rare in bollywood's films.Anyways, there is one more reason why I liked the first half, the friendship between the two,the kind of chemistry they had and some how i felt I am somewhat like Ratss,non violent,good friend to have along side a gal ;-) ;little caring etc etc and even if i am not perfectly that way, i felt like being a best friend of some one like "Aditi" (Cute lil studpid daring gal) and ya "Just a friend" nothing more :D
The ending was similar to any bollywood masala movie,nothing special about it!!!!

It was around 10:30 or so by the time movie got over and was feeling very hungry,but there was nothing to eat @ my place and not even a single shop open, i had nothing to do except to surf net and read something interesting.So while surfing I came across one blog by Kanika Khurana (sorry i lost the link n couldn't find it again),she did her graduation/engg from somewhere in US,worked for sometime,did her MBA from stanford landed up into Google and still working there.Modelling was her passion and to be a Miss India International or something like that was her dream,she didn't win that competition but was able to come very near to her dream(won Miss Congeniality,Miss Best eyes etc). She is doing modelling as well as working with google.

After reading the blog,there was this question in my mind of "how much a person can achieve", "where does the inspiration comes from & etc etc" and after some thinking i realized, there is so much a person can achieve given the opportunities and resources/talent. What one needs is to put in efforts and keep working hard.After reading the blog I felt like I am so small in this world,with hardly 500 people knowing me and I still feel that I have achieved more then my parents and friends expect from me. There is so much I want to do in my life,I want to be at a position where everyone can recognize me and everyone who would have known me once can be proud of me. "Believe in youself" is the key, My parents expect me to have a safe future coz they care for me and they want me to be happy, its for me to manage my life in a way that they can be happy seeing me relaxed and comfortable with life and at the same time I need to keep working on my aspirations.

I can take any one of the path, either I can achieve what my parents and friends expect from me and be satisfied or I can work hard for my own "Expectations" which are much higher then the former one. The decision is entirely mine and I think I always choose the later option, I take my life as a challenge and do what ever it takes to come out winning !!!!

"Expectations" is a word that really confuse me at times, is it good to expect more from myself or is it good to be satisfied with what others expect from you !!!!

"Life is Endless Journey on a Pyramid where going up is always difficult and no matter how high you are,there is some one higher then you,its for us to either look Up to a few people and think that you are on the Foot of the Pyramid or look Down to far more people and think that you are on the Top"

Narcissist Speaks Again...!!!!

I read my Previous blog and realized how little did i write about myself :D So here i go again....

I am a fairly independent self sufficient person who manages everything he needs to,in other words i am aware of my things/work and responsible towards them.I have always been this way from my very schools days and continued to be same during my college time.I don't hesitate to ask for help for the things out of my reach but if there is something i can do then i would give my 100%

I am an addiction and talking to me can be addictive @ times coz i have the patience to tolerate/listen all the crap and at the same time can give some practical advices. There is something which people find interesting about me,may be my attitude,my talks,my sense of humour or may be my philosophy for life !!!

I am indeed cute and innocent both by luks n by my talks so can get into gal's heart very easily ;-) Testimonials on my orkut account are just a small proof for that !!!

ohh i forgot something more,I am little intelligent and very sharp in my thinking,wiser then you can think of and mature then any one can make out from my voice.

I would close this blog by mentioning some of the best compliments i received from my friends and some strangers !!!

1) I am a very good person by heart
2) A very sweet guy, with a very strong will power
3) A friend u can trust and back up on
4) My online brother,Immensefully passionate
5) Never tries to be some1 hez not, Alvez his original self wid no artificial faces
6) Strong headed, determined, caring, loving, bindaas, sweet..has gr8 sense of humour and a really cute smile
7) Knows the rules of the big game n knows xactly how 2 achieve his goals
8) Great to chat with,as u wil never get bored,Guy got a life in him

Stay Happy n Keep Smiling !!!!

Narcissist Speaks !!!!

Time around 3:30 in the afternoon.... Date : Around 30th Sept 2007....Venue : Some seat of IIT Delhi Library , See how accurately i remember everything :-)

Me and one of my good friend whom i shall call Maggie, were "Trying" to study and me disturbing her with my philosophy of life and blabbering about myself which gets irritating after a certain time,so out of shear frustration she speaks up "Chup Kar Narcissist" and trust me ...i gave her those weird looks since i didn't know what narcissist mean,so the first thing i ask her is the meaning and she started laughing !!! And since den she calls me "A Narcissist" ...that's how i got this weird tittle !!!! I tried to convince her that i'm not a narcissist,its just that i love myself and know myself better :-) but it didn't work out.

Though its little weird "title" yet some how I like it coz it gives me a freedom to speak about myself.So instead of wasting much of time and energy,let me get to the point :D

I am highly energetic person and My work comes prior to me,work bole to chatting,studying,games,movies,downloading,helping others etc etc.So i do stay awake till late and still manage to wake up early in the morning.I did that consistently while I was in college. I believe i'm a positive thinker and helping others comes naturally to me (Thanks to my mom for this),very good @ motivating others when they are down n out and trust me it gives the most happy feeling when someone says "thanks for being there". Being that sort of person helped me to make lots of friends who used to call me up in the middle of night and talk about their fights with bf/gf , about their exams and tensions in their mind and some how i used to calm then down with my stupid sense of humour which was nothing but using their own words with a different ascent or rather taking the literal meaning of the words or using an alternative idea of some arbit Flirting n stuff :D and don't know y i was tagged as "A Flirt" though i used/use this for their own good adulterated with some jokes n leg pulling.

Coming back to myself,since i am an aquarious so by default I am "Career oriented" though i hardly cared about it till i was 17.Discovered about my intellectual mind later on and have been doing fairly good since then.A bit emotional from inside and very few people in this world get to see that side of me.Ooppss i forgot the most important thing, I am honest and truthful hence everything written till now is correct to my knowledge and can be verified by any means/sources or by person !!!!

Thats it for now....Narcissist would speak more,some other day :-)

P.S :- "friend(s)" word used in the blog refers to people mostly from cyberworld

Note : A recent self constructed line that kinda suit me : I am sure no one has a crush on me coz as long as i remember,people only fall in love with me ;-)

18th July 2008

Let me start with my fresh memories i.e about today, it 6:30 in the evening and I am still in the office, i am supposed to leave by now but m writing this blog, it just shows how much i am in love with this blog of mine :-)
After all i am trying to built this one from last 3-4 hours..searching google for the latest templates...trying to understand some html coding though i didnt understand a word of it.Also trying to make this pic which is there at the top of this page with what ever resources I had (M S Paint only)...

Now the amazing thing is I did all this while sitting in the office while my team leader is sitting right behind my back.Its been a month since I joined this company,I am still into my training period and M busy reading other blogs and trying to make one of my own, how Strange is that :D

ooopss i forgot that I was supposed to write about "the day", the boss is not here today, he is on n off to mumbai and since these are the most relaxing days of the year with no projects n much of internal work, everyone is doing time pass bole to coffee break n gossiping.Everyone was busy with this stupid questionare where there were like 100 odd companys' logos and they were searching google to find which one belongs to which company. I really don't know why they were wasting time on that !!!!! Besides usual lunch break I was out of office for couple of times doing nothing,just coz i was bored of sitting in front of computer...

I am suppose to learn a lot in this "training period" but with such a casual environment around me,I don't know why but i'm not utilizing my time efficiently...I know the problem is mine and I have to come over it but just not excited about this work....dont know why !!!!!!

One line that I read today "The best things in life come to you when you stop looking for them"

Let me know your point of view on this !!!!!

Stay happy and Keep smiling

Enjoy and Have fun !!!!

(Written on 18th, Posted on 19th)) :D

My First Blog !!!!!

Now what do i write !! I have been trying to write a blog from like 3-4 years....wrote some ..deleted some..forgot passwords and blah blah.....but finally after reading other blogs from last one month and that too during my training period of my "First ever job", I have decided (Which i did many a times) to maintain a blog...

There is so much to write but for now I am confused of what to write...so wait for my next blog...!!!!!!!!!!!

Enjoy !!!!!!