Not so good days

I don't why but I am forgetting my own ideologies and rules..

........feeling insecure about things which I never wanted;
........feeling frustrated about the fact that my existence / non-existence wont affect anyone, in spite of knowing that I don't compare myself or my life with anyone else;
........trying hard to keep myself busy with work & studies even though I know I enjoy the both
........I am in a process to hate people / love / relationships and I was the one telling every one that life is too short to hate anything
........the loneliness and solitude that once was a source of inspiration is killing me these days

I have 100s of reasons to make mistakes but i am still holding on to make none...!!!

Freedom

Freedom is not worth having if it does not connote freedom to err. It passes my comprehension how human beings, be they ever so experienced and able, can delight in depriving other human beings of that precious right.

--By Mahatma Gandhi

Cricket !!!

Not a post that many of you would like to read but still I couldn't resist. I just saw Today's match b/w india and new zealand and there was just one thing going in my mind :

Cricket is a religion and Sachin is its God !!!

And for all those Journalists / News Makers and Critics, please don't ever doubt the guy, he is an awesome person and a 100% committed professional.

I hope I would have the same passion for my profession when I reach that level in my career.

P.S : Does any one know if the biography of sachin is available in market, if yes what is its name ?  

There is a lot I can learn from the person :) 

Take : One

I have a new wallpaper on my desktop and it goes like this :

"For everything you have missed, you gained something else; And for everything you gain, you lose something else.It is about you outlook towards life, you can either regret or rejoice"

My take : One regrets or rejoices depends on the priorities one has for the things that are being gained or lost.

Leave your comments.

Chemical Lochaa !!

When was the last time you heard the same two words and the context in which they were used !!!

I am sure you know the answer and if you don't; then leave it and continue to read :)

Anyways, what I am going to write is a long awaited post and delay got even more because I couldn't think of a simpler name for the post since the content is going to be lot more complicated and confusing.

Lets take it this way, "Chemical Locha" in some movie referred to a state of mind when Munna Bhai could see and feel "Baapu" when other were not able to and as per my learning/observations/experiences, its same with us.

Everything we feel and do is a state of our mind but we are in so deep control of our mind that we see what our mind wants us to see, we feel what we should feel, we act the way our mind wants to act be it right or wrong coz we are only told one of them by our mind.

We get sad when we fail at something, we get over excited when we achieve something, why don't we accept failure and just argue with ourselves that we didn't deserve it !! Why is it that exams are always taken as a difficult part ? We want to sleep till late because its a chilly morning, we want to stay awake late coz we want to celebrate new year at 12, is chilly morning on 31st December colder then night of the same day ??

Other side of chemical locha is that,most of us underestimate ourselves and we give up before trying our best for it and more or less the reason is "fear of loosing", a preoccupied state of our mind. Why do we always pursue things which we feel we would be good at, why don't we do pursue something which we don't have any idea about, coz if we are good we would be good at everything, why do we believe that we can't be better then the people we admire or the great people we look up to. No one is born genius; everyone learns, acquires and develops skills, why can't each one us give a try to be better then the best rather then giving up at the very start.

The last form of Chemical Locha is fairly complicated and I am sure most of you would disagree but since Controversy exists every where so let it be here too

We do believe that some individuals have higher mental strength / toughness then others and what we refer here is the strength to control our temptations or to over come our addictions and also at times the strength one needs to survive in tough painful times , but does this strength also come into picture when we talk of human emotions, isn't a girl's insecurity or a guy's urge for sex a state of mind and can be controlled ? I personally believe that the emotional imbalance that co-exists in our day to day life is nothing but a subconscious state of mind coz we know what's right for us yet we act the way we are supposed to.... the question is why and answer is yet to be discovered !!!

P.S : I am having free time in office and the tradition to blog from office continues :)

Random Facts !!!

What I am about to write is a random observation of mine and not directed to any single person, so don't get offended by anything.

Secondly, I need a help from any fellow blogger because I always have so many topics to write on and as soon as I sit to write, its all blank. Can any one help , suggest some better way ?

Now, as the topic suggests this is about some arbit and stupid facts/observations which I have noticed in past 4-5 years :-

1 - A girl always like to have a female pet be it a dog,cat,parrot etc --- Don't know why ??

2 - "A lot can happen over a cup of coffee" -- tag line of Cafe Coffee Day !!

3 - Every employed person is unhappy with the job no matter how high paying it is, yet no one quits a job for nothing

4 - Happiness is not an Explicit function,it is a function of a function with happiness as an independent variable

5 - Intelligence is a inherited character and is not a function of college or a field of study

6 - Human mind never argues with itself, it only convinces where as it always argues with others and doesn't convince -- Conclusion : Every one has a hypocrite with in them !!!

7 - We make our own rules, we break them for our own reason and still blame others !!!

8 - If all men are dogs then all girls are bitches !!!

9 - All girls are the same and same goes for the boys !!!

10 - "Future Perfect tense" and "Present continuous tense" can never go side by side !!!

P.S : Some of the facts are too complicated to understand so please don't get into the roots of the origin of these facts !!! :)

"Philosophy of Inspiration"

I read the following article some where and felt like sharing it on my blog, if you can read the following text at one go with out getting bored, i am sure you have something in yourself that this blog talks about...!!!! All The Best and Enjoy :-)

Inspirational Life Quote

Those who are gifted with the power of inspirational thought get it from within themselves but it does not happen by accident. There is a method and a means to achieving this energy that can be had by anyone, no matter who you are. The power of inspirational thought comes from inside of each person no matter what their age, race, gender or personality type. All that is required is a determination to sit still and look deep inside yourself.

When most people decide to sit still and close their eyes, they see a series of thoughts and emotions flashing past their minds eye that seems virtually uncontrollable. Various ideas and thoughts may pop into your head which have absolutely no meaning and yet, you cannot stop the mind from running endlessly. As you continue to sit still and watch your thoughts and emotions, you will tend to lose track of what you are doing and get lost in your thoughts and feelings. If you manage to pay attention and watch yourself for a short period of time, you will see that you have very little control over what goes through your mind and when. Very few people can stand to sit still for very long and practice this. They tend to get bored or anxious or uncomfortable and they quickly open their eyes and go find something else to do. Why can not we sit still? What is bothering us so much that we always have to be moving around doing something each moment? DO we need more money? Do we need to talk to someone? Are we lonely or needing some form of entertainment every moment to keep ourselves happy? Very few people can actually stand to sit still with themselves and be contented. In fact, this power is something that many spiritual students strive for each day and is the source of everything that is inspirational in the world.

Inspiration to do great things comes from within but few people are actually capable of looking within themselves for any significant amount of time. Their attention is always thrown by one thought or another and they are back to doing the same old things that they have always done their entire life. If you are able to discipline yourself, however, to learn to sit still and to watch your thoughts and emotions as they pass by your minds eye, you will eventually become familiar with something very powerful deep within yourself. The energy of observation is a consciousness that exists inside of you and is actually the source of all your happiness and sadness, your joy and your anger, your fears and desires. It is the underlying source of everything you have ever experienced and it is an infinite energy which creates all the inspirational thoughts of the world.

As you devote yourself to practicing this new game, try to notice all the times when you feel like getting up and stopping this practice. Watch how your mind kicks and fights to gain control of you and to stop you from learning to be content with who you already are. Your ego does not want you to sit still and it will throw up every fear and rationalization it can invent just to get you out of your chair and back out into the rat race that you call "life". The real inspirational thoughts are the ones that come from deep inside your soul and can only be found through a lot of "soul searching". Search inside yourself each day for a certain amount of time and do not let your mind shake you from this task no matter what it may tell you is more important than this. Searching your soul is the most important thing you could ever decide to do but also the most challenging as well. Devote yourself to win at this game and you will soon discover an inspirational energy inside of you that you never knew existed. You will become one of the people who can deliver the inspirational thoughts that you have always hoped to find in other people.

For more reading check out the website : http://www.positivethinkingnow.com

Last Night !!!

Wow, I seriously can't believe I am writing the blog with this tittle :D though i am sure it would be short of any "Explicit Content" !!!

For all those who expect this particular blog to be full of "ting tong" stuff (U know what i mean ;-) ), I would like to make it clear that neither did i make out with some one nor I spent last night at pub/disc/bar or else dream about some one;but ya something interesting happened, i had mood swings !!!

I came back from my office @ my regular time around 7:00 PM or so,bit tired after doing nothing much in office,had downloaded a movie couple of days back so just sat down and started with the movie "Jaane tu... yaa Jaane Na "..Since I am big fan of the work Aamir Khan does and the way he implement his ideas,I expected the movie to be fairly good. He was neither in the movie nor he was a director but this time he was a producer launching his nephew Imran Khan,but i believe it was his idea only.So the movie started with a video or rather a documentary,similar idea that he had implemented in TZP (it was in the end though) and the movie went on for 2 hrs 33 mins and i skipped my dinner :D
Now,i'm not going to narrate the story but would just add my perspective and the way i saw it.I liked the first half more the second half coz it had more lively characters with MEAOW's amazing dialogues "Fattu tu,Teri Maa,Tera Baap fattu,Tera poora khandaan and blah blah blah .....", that was awesome coz thats rare in bollywood's films.Anyways, there is one more reason why I liked the first half, the friendship between the two,the kind of chemistry they had and some how i felt I am somewhat like Ratss,non violent,good friend to have along side a gal ;-) ;little caring etc etc and even if i am not perfectly that way, i felt like being a best friend of some one like "Aditi" (Cute lil studpid daring gal) and ya "Just a friend" nothing more :D
The ending was similar to any bollywood masala movie,nothing special about it!!!!

It was around 10:30 or so by the time movie got over and was feeling very hungry,but there was nothing to eat @ my place and not even a single shop open, i had nothing to do except to surf net and read something interesting.So while surfing I came across one blog by Kanika Khurana (sorry i lost the link n couldn't find it again),she did her graduation/engg from somewhere in US,worked for sometime,did her MBA from stanford landed up into Google and still working there.Modelling was her passion and to be a Miss India International or something like that was her dream,she didn't win that competition but was able to come very near to her dream(won Miss Congeniality,Miss Best eyes etc). She is doing modelling as well as working with google.

After reading the blog,there was this question in my mind of "how much a person can achieve", "where does the inspiration comes from & etc etc" and after some thinking i realized, there is so much a person can achieve given the opportunities and resources/talent. What one needs is to put in efforts and keep working hard.After reading the blog I felt like I am so small in this world,with hardly 500 people knowing me and I still feel that I have achieved more then my parents and friends expect from me. There is so much I want to do in my life,I want to be at a position where everyone can recognize me and everyone who would have known me once can be proud of me. "Believe in youself" is the key, My parents expect me to have a safe future coz they care for me and they want me to be happy, its for me to manage my life in a way that they can be happy seeing me relaxed and comfortable with life and at the same time I need to keep working on my aspirations.

I can take any one of the path, either I can achieve what my parents and friends expect from me and be satisfied or I can work hard for my own "Expectations" which are much higher then the former one. The decision is entirely mine and I think I always choose the later option, I take my life as a challenge and do what ever it takes to come out winning !!!!

"Expectations" is a word that really confuse me at times, is it good to expect more from myself or is it good to be satisfied with what others expect from you !!!!

"Life is Endless Journey on a Pyramid where going up is always difficult and no matter how high you are,there is some one higher then you,its for us to either look Up to a few people and think that you are on the Foot of the Pyramid or look Down to far more people and think that you are on the Top"