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One year hence.....Part 2

2011-11-06T04:23:00.000+05:30

I have been visiting my blog regularly but never felt like writing one for various reasons. Tonight, i have the time and a right frame of mind to complete this blog. So here it goes....

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Sept 2, 2010, the date when i left the city which i didn't really like and moved to a homely environment with the dude around all the time. I witnessed what i always wished, seeing him learn everything..... from speaking, crawling, standing, eating etc etc. On the other hand, I was running out of time coz I was jobless and surely, it isn't the best feeling as you have been habitual to a routine & keeping yourself occupied. The "khali dimag" gives you a lot of doubts about yourself and your future. The various things that can possibly go wrong and the questions you may be asked...!!

Anyway, at the back of my mind, i knew that i am moving on to put more efforts and not here to give up. So the success is inevitable, it may just take a bit of time. So I had plans and a fair idea of what i wanted to do in the free days. Looking for a better job was one, studying was second and visiting my native place & staying there for a period of 2 weeks or more was the third one. The whole September went in all form of interviews, multiple interviews happening on a single day etc etc..i am sure i don't have the most attractive resume but i broke the code of appearing on the top of the list in search results for various job portals leading to the interview calls.

Of all the interviews that happened, the one i got through was the one where i got the feeling of getting through within the first 10 mins of 1/5 round of interviews. Something that helped me understand the meaning of intuition, destiny or whatever.....you get a different feeling from the start that you would succeed. I finally got the final offer on 29th Sept and to my destiny or surprise..it was again in the same city of Hyderabad, which meant that I would have to set up all the things again, at the very same place which I didn't like much. The good thing about the offer was I had asked a joining post Diwali which ensured that i have one & half month long break and a new life awaiting on the other side of it.

All the self doubts, fear and insecurity turned into a joyous feeling and a belief that everything happens for good. I started to feel a bit more confident and a lot more positive ...and that's what a sense of achievement or success does to you. The next one month passed with a lot of thinking & planning on what to do from here. The mistakes & things that led to negativism shouldn't be repeated and do whatever it takes to keep myself motivated & positive. The role, I was offered wasn't the most ideal one, but i decide that i would get the best of it, learn and develop skills that i want to and explore all the opportunities. Additionally, keep a balanced life and at least have sometime for everything otherwise it would make me feel stuck again

The next 45 holidays were not as stressful as the last 29 days, however i was still getting calls and getting interviewed. I moved to my native place with my parents for next one month or so and interviews kept following me. One fine day, i got another offer and now the confusion was which one to join. The second offer wasn't the attractive one in terms of compensation but was in Gurgaon and might require me to work from UK for a span of up to 2 years. The point was they asked me join in such a hurry that i sensed something is wrong. With the help of IIT network, i did find out that they do it with each person they hire even if there isn't any work. I told them that i would join on so & so date but i didn't.

Anyway, i spent a much needed time with my parents. The longest i have had in past 4 years and observed the changes in their lives and expectations from us as children. How much they have compromised & sacrificed to put me in a position that I could give a decent enough job for nothing. The whole month gave me enough energy & motivation to set my priorities straight and head out to achieve what i want to... staying with in my limitations & moral responsibility.

2 weeks later...14th Nov 2010, i moved back to Hyderabad to a different organization with different expectations and much more people in the surroundings. A different brand, culture & environment all together and hence i had to be different from what I was, so i changed my approach...a bit more aggressive..a bit more professional & a lot more smart in dealing with people.

Just like any other year....a lot has happened since 15th Nov 2010 to 6th Nov 2011. .. will blog about it and rest of the ideas if and when the time permits.

A Random post for random times...

2011-06-26T23:58:00.004+05:30

Life is not about keeping a record, it isn't about how many people call you or miss you, it is not about who you have dated or which person likes you.It isn't about what sport you play or which music you like , It isn't about your shoes,your hair, your race or where you live.

Life is not about the college you study from, the grades you passed with, the money you earn or the clothes you wear. Life isn't about having loads of friends or staying alone, it isn't bout how common or weird you are !!

Life is about who you love and who you hurt, it's about how you feel about yourself, it's about trust happiness and compassion, it's about sticking up for your friends and replacing inner hate with love. It is about valuing a relationship, personal and professional

Life is about avoiding jealousy,overcoming ignorance and building confidence. It is about what you say, what you mean and what you do. It is about seeing people for who they are and not what they have or what they want to be. It is about choosing to use your life touch someone else's in a way that could have never been achieved otherwise.

Life is all about making choices...!!!

24 Hours...Part 1 - Budwiser Effect

2011-06-11T00:21:00.000+05:30

I'm in a good mood & it prompted me to share the kind of days i enjoy....very weird but then i love these kind of days :) .

9th June..got up at 8:30 in the morning....got ready by 8:55 and left for the office...reached office with loads of work waiting for me. The thing which made it even more challenging was to complete the work by 7 PM in evening because we were having once in a year party for entire group of people ...close to 100 people and probably the only party when alcohol is sponsored by the company.

In a mood to party hard and with the pressure to complete the work, I slogged all day long to complete the work with minimum time for the lunch, coffee break, chat, phone calls etc. I somehow managed to complete enough amount work, if not all & sneaked in couple of calls with the US folks as well and made sure that i leave office by 7:30. To make it even more enjoyable, the rain god was kind to us and it rained while we had our party in an open lawn besides a pool and a DJ floor. The time was right & so was the weather, to enjoy alcohol with the colleague and talk "intelligent" stuff while everyone around you was kind of drunk :)

So here I was, holding a budwiser from the time I walked in till the time I walked out, I am not sure how many of them did i finish but I am sure the person serving the beers was in a state of shock seeing me again every 5-10 mins. Just to clear the air, i didn't drink so much of beers, I was just helping out everyone in the party to complete their quota of beers ;) .It was indeed the beauty of the party that I could offer anyone & everyone a beer coz I wasn't paying for it :)

Anyways, we all danced....some in totally drunk state, some in a semi drunk state and some people like me in a "Delightfully High" mood. With the kind of dancer I am, it was better for me to move out of dance floor and do what i like most...mingle with people....people i normally won't get a chance to interact. It was one of those days when I saw most naturally side of the people i work with...for obvious reasons ;)

The weather made it more awesome for me to sit under the open sky and talk to people. It was just the start of 4 hour session of chit chat with probably everyone I see in my office every day...I don't work with all of them but I tried to interact with most of them, and somehow realized to have developed a habit of cracking one liners and ability to speak in different ascents..be it Haryanvi, Mumbaiya hindi, punjabi, a bit of Hyderabadi hindi and that "hey dude..whats up" kind of :P

This was probably the only time I could talk to the DJ, probably the only time I was able to talk to "well dressed" girls even in the formal set up....coz previously i had perception that I am not their types and I can't fit in. What kept me going was the level of energy, not the beers :P and what makes me happy is I made an attempt to come out of my shell and be part of the environment which I used to avoid. Its easier to talk to people you have atleast something in common than the people whom you don't know at all....i have done a lot of the tougher part and yesterday I learnt the easier one.....better late then never :)

Finally around 1 AM or so, we all decided to leave for our respective homes. Till that time I thought the beer didn't get into me, but after driving the bike for 5 kms, reaching home & spending 5 minutes on facebook I finally realized that I had more beers than I should have ...which made my next day (10th June) a tough one...but when the going gets tough..the tough gets going :-)

--Part II would follow soon with the details of what happened the nextday--

The Dude ....!!!

2011-05-23T21:21:00.000+05:30

After writing my previous blog i realized, i had forgotten a very important thing..i forgot to introduce the new member of our family. So the 'One year hence part... 2' is postponed for now.

On 23rd of December 2009, 2 days before the bollywood's biggest hit "3 Idiots" was released, my bhabi gave birth to a baby boy. Back then, for couple of weeks he was called the "4th Idiot " but later given the name "Shlok", obviously by me. As with any other kid these days, the guy is quite smart considering his age and unlike me & my brother, he is quite photogenic. He somehow has the ability to locate camera from the corner of his eyes and pose for a picture. This one is just one of the many..!!

Needless to say, but I am in love with the Dude..and somehow the circumstances turned around in a way that i get to spent time with him while he learnt to crawl, walk, talk and 100 other things. I don't remember how i spent my childhood but seeing him doing all kind of stuff makes me feel, i wish i was that smart.

The guy passes smile to girls of my age and gets all the attention..somehow has love for Mobile phone & laptops from day 1...doesn't sleep before 12 Midnight..has enormous amount of love for ice-cream, cold coffee and mango...give him the phone and he will talk for long hours (in his own language)... Don't know if god is working over time to design these kids :P

I don't know how, but the dude recognized me even when I met him for the first time and he has been after my specs since then, oh yeah....just mine !! He deliberately wakes me up and signals towards my specs lying on the table or else where. He comes and sit in my lap, just when i am about to have lunch / dinner and obviously share some of it :-). He makes me eat his share of biscuits & chocolates and at times rice too.. pinch by pinch for half an hour or so. ...Plays with me just when I sit to work and list of our bonding goes on & on....

Sometimes its fascinating to see him being able to differentiate between a T.V Remote, a Mobile phone and a toy phone..from where can he know which charger fits into which mobile...how can he imitate everyone's actions so easily....how can he apply so much of brain in most of the things he do !! I am sure its just the start of thousands of unbelievable things which i am gonna witness about him.....these 3rd generation kids...beyond my scope to understand...!!

P.S - Shlok, if &when you happen to read this blog..you would know how naughty you were & how much happiness you bring to me and the entire family....:-)

One year hence.....Part 1

2011-05-20T23:23:00.006+05:30

Its been over an year since i blogged last time...a lot has changed since then...a new job..a new house..a new bike..new life experiences....new people..new friends...new responsibilities...and bigger than that, we have a new ICC world champions :-)

So here i go....sharing my life and experiences.!!

The last summer was a forgettable one....frustrated with the job & possibly seeking bad luck in every thing i was doing...I met an accident..got stitches on my right hand with couple of weeks left in an important exam. Post exam wasn't a easy time either, day used to start with leaving from home in frustration and 6-7 hours later..reaching back home with frustration from office...!! Preparing for job interviews every alternate day and keep waiting to hear from the job consultants and companies...came close to quite a few but "apna to bad luck hi kharab hai"...somehow or the other..the offer letter didn't come :P

Parents visited my place in a way to get me out of the frustration and advising me to continue the job for a little while longer...but the kind of guy i am, i resigned from my job without any other offer letter...a decision that many would have felt foolish considering i was earning decent enough. On the other hand, i passed the exam too..i knew i would pass coz of the level of preparation & motivation i had in-spite of an Inter Venal injection in my right arm.

Resigning from a job gave a sense of relief coz i knew I'm moving on.. but at the same time i was in an uncertainty ...i didn't know what would i move on to. The good thing about it was i wanted a change and I made it happen rather than waiting for it. Probably the first positive thing i learnt from all of it :-)

31st August 2010, the day when i left my first job and 2 days later i moved out of Hyderabad....for me i had nothing to loose coz there wasn't anything to gain even if I had stayed longer ...for others i might have lost everything...considering "Money / Job / Career" is everything ..at least in the community i studied !!

Keep visiting the space to know what happened next !! :-)

Copied but Awesome :)

2010-02-26T14:33:00.000+05:30

When Sachin Tendulkar traveled to Pakistan to face one of the finest bowling attacks ever assembled in cricket, Michael Schumacher was yet to race a F1 car, Lance Armstrong had never been to the Tour de France, Diego Maradona was still the captain of a world champion Argentina team, Pete Sampras had never won a Grand Slam.

When Tendulkar embarked on a glorious career taming Imran and company, Roger Federer was a name unheard of; Lionel Messi was in his nappies, Usain Bolt was an unknown kid in the Jamaican backwaters. The Berlin Wall was still intact, USSR was one big, big country, Dr Manmohan Singh was yet to "open" the Nehruvian economy.

It seems while Time was having his toll on every individual on the face of this planet, he excused one man. Time stands frozen in front of Sachin Tendulkar.

We have had champions, we have had legends, but we have never had a Sachin Tendulkar and we never will.

My 24th Birthday !!! -- I'm still discovering myself

2010-01-22T14:28:00.010+05:30

Yesterday was my 24th birthday and though I am official 24 now but i still believe "i am growing up without growing old" ..which is other way of saying, i am still carrying the innocence, humbleness and a fresh attitude to learn like a 12 year old kid :) ... sorry for being narcissistic, but i can't help it.

Anyway, I won't talk about how I spent my birthday but about the things I discovered about myself in past few months and about the world around :)

Do we see what we think or do we think what we see ?....I personally believe that we see what we think since everything starts from our mind and that's one of the reason why I was so frustrated with my life coz i thought what i shouldn't have and hence did everything which I could have avoided or which could have been done in a much better way. The moral is... always have a control on what you think and the way to do is to have like minded people around you, if not people than stay connected to the things which keeps your thinking right & simple

Even if you are an Osama-bin-laden, its important that you are surrounded by terrorists and not by saints.

Since I write blog to share good thoughts, i won't share the frustrating part of my life but the things I learnt all this while, Don't take these as words of advice but as a learning experience of someone else. I am too young to advice anyone :)

--Never have a self doubt, thats the worst thing that can happen to anyone. There is atleast one thing about each one of us that made us achieve what we are, just stick to that. It can be anything..luck..cheating...never say die attitude..hardwork..intelligence or even copying someone else

--Never compete with someone in his/her strength, use your strengths to excel in life coz you can't beat someone's good luck with your bad luck, you can't manipulate system better than someone who has done it from past 20 years. If hardwork has worked for me, i would be stupid to try my luck without working harder

--The world around us is not as ugly as it looks like, we just need to look at the brighter side of it and learn from it. It is a saying that a drunk guy is always honest, so either you can learn to be a drunkard or you can learn to be an honest person. It is not at all necessary to be drunk in order to be honest. Choice is yours !!!

--There are no substitutes for parents & no fhortcuts for success. No one except your parents cares about your happiness, everyone else has a selfish reason attached, for you being happy. About success, Sachin Tendulkar still has to go out in the sun to score runs even though he is successful at it, how can we call ourselves successful by scoring more runs than him on a play station against highest difficulty level ?? Either we don't know the definition of success or we are too lazy to put efforts !!

--It not necessary to fail in order to succeed coz out of the 1000 individuals who fail, only one become Bill Gates or Steve Jobs or J.K Rowling. Avoid getting failed, there are better ways to learn as well. Prevention is better than cure...remember ???

--There are always three choices for everything and not two !!! We subconsciously ignore the third one.....should i read this...should i not read this.... & the third one..should i know why it is written !! First two are too easy to decide...third one takes a bit of thinking !!

--Try to make progress in life always but never forget what you have achieved and what you have !! One makes your future better and one makes your present beautiful ...both are equally important

-- Lastly, sharing and saying ideal things are much easier than doing ...but then "doing" is the only way to make it real ....thinking / hoping / wishing wont result in anything !!!

For all those who think I am intelligent, i am not...its the attitude to study for 16 hours a day got me into IIT...its the attitude to stay 24 x 7 online that made me meet and have good friends....its the attitude to learn from everything that came across made me what i am......i hope i will continue with the same attitude :)

Giving up is the last option on my list, so i will try till i can...to be a good person..to be a good friend and a successful human being !!!

P.S : Last couple of lines are just meant for me... :) ....and even if you can relate it to yourself... don't think that you want to be me...but think how can you be yourself !!!

P.P.S : Commenting on my blog is not at all compulsory from now on as if it was.. :P ...its an option...coz i anyway right about myself and for myself :)

Thanks to all those who are reading this & wished me on my birthday... :)

I am Alive

2009-07-06T12:10:00.004+05:30

Hey guys,

I am sure no one would have visited my blog from last 4 months because even i didn't visit it :D but just wanted to share that i am alive and so is my blog :) ....i will be back to regular blogging soon (from next monday probably)

There is a hell lot to share ..something good..something not so good....what i have achieved and what is yet to be achieved.

The changes that have taken place, the friends who got married and who are planing to :P

So please be with me :)

P.S : I just bought Canon SX 110 :) and might just start with a photo blog of mine :)

Tag # 1

2009-04-14T14:29:00.008+05:30

This is my first tagged post and I don't know what am I supposed to write. Anyways Sakshi tagged me here in her one of the post and since I don't have any girl friend, the kind of narcissistic person I am,I would strictly try to keep this tag to myself and as funny as possible :

All you have to do, is write down something significant about yourself next to each number one to ten.

1 -- No of times i have been tagged till now and this is the only one :)
One is also the no. of college i have studied in - IIT Delhi :)

2 -- Number of blogs I write (other being less frequent)

3 -- No of broken bones I had till now (Right hand,Left hand's ring finger,left ankle)

4 -- Number of memorable years @ IIT D

5 -- Number of times i have drunk beer :)

6 -- Number of guy in my friend circle in school as well as college (never had any girl around :P )

7 -- My lucky no. !! Its attached to almost everything in my life.

8 -- Number of grueling semesters at IIT, where exams used to visit us thrice in every semester

9 -- Number of blogs I am following anonymously :)

10 -- Number of digits in my mobile no. :D

Finalllyyy i have completed the tag and it took a lot of hard work to think about all the above points.

Now I am forwarding the tag to Smriti, Akansha,Hadez,Dev D & Yamini

P.S : This was a tough one, kindly tag me simpler ones from now :)

I have been quite busy with the work hence couldn't write, I do read the blogs so keep blogging :)

New Love

2009-04-06T16:10:00.001+05:30

Just realized that I'm in love with Shreya Ghosal's voice :)

Listening some sweet songs ..even in office

..suggest some if you know !!!

sponti - 2

2009-03-29T11:33:00.003+05:30

Continuing the habit of spontaneous lines, here are some, I had thought of lately :

1) Studies and Relationships, both requires 100% commitment !! (rest you can infer yourself) :

2) A group of girls are always attractive irrespective of any individual's "beauty" !!

3) Bad things always happen to good people because good people never see good things !!

---- To be continued----

P.S : can any one help me to add proper smiley as seen in YM on my blog ?

Continued....

2009-03-28T21:16:00.004+05:30

In continuation of the previous blog, here are some of the reactions from different IIT's students on one of this site : http://www.zeenews.com/states/2009-03-22/517086news.html

What is most astonishing is the way the administration tried to curb the movement of the students. The internet and the LAN in the college had also been cut off. The news article presents a one sided view of the police force & the administration. -Student - IIT Kharagpur
This news is totally one sided. It seems that you have pictured students as some kind of criminals. The students didn`t go ballistic as first response. The protests were made when the management took the issue lightly. What exactly did you mean by ``The Director and his family members were safe`` did you think that students are gonna hurt the directer and his family. -Student - IIT Kharagpur - Kharagpur
Director responded pathetically to the situation.He was making fun of the situation.Institute put a lan ban on the students to prevent them from letting the world know the true news .The condition of B.C.ROY Hospital is pathetic .Last year also a student died due to negligence of the authorities.When students went to talk to the director ,he thought we just wanted a holiday .He talked in an insulting language ```I appreciate your presence and sympathize with everyone here` - director with a smile on his face.then the students protested and made him resign -Arpan Kumar De - IIT KHARAGPUR

This is a site of IIT Kgp, rather a news paper..... http://scholarsavenue.targetiit.com/

Reading the article on the above site, I can just say "Fuck IIT System"

:-| :-( :'(

2009-03-28T20:50:00.003+05:30

I was here to write something good that i have been feeling from last 3-4 days but then i read the exact news of what had happened to the IIT Kgp student who died a week back and things changed..here is the true story, the one that would never reach to media or out of IIT Kgp by any other means except IIT's students itself...read on

http://grassonfire.blogspot.com/2009/03/rohit-kumar-will-be-remembered.html

This is only one of the reaction of 100's of IITians :

http://antiquiti.blogspot.com/2009/03/iit-kgp-grease-monkey-ed.html

And as an Ex-IITian , I can believe that coz its exactly this way, students die and the gods at IIT cover it up. I have seen that when a junior of mine committed suicide and everything was covered up right then and there.

I don't know what else to write about this coz I hated IIT admin and still do, it is inefficient and "chalta hai" attitude !!

To learn from the mistake, one needs to accept the mistake and the arrogant IIT systems never does that !!!

Not so good days

2009-03-24T10:43:00.003+05:30

I don't why but I am forgetting my own ideologies and rules..

........feeling insecure about things which I never wanted;
........feeling frustrated about the fact that my existence / non-existence wont affect anyone, in spite of knowing that I don't compare myself or my life with anyone else;
........trying hard to keep myself busy with work & studies even though I know I enjoy the both
........I am in a process to hate people / love / relationships and I was the one telling every one that life is too short to hate anything
........the loneliness and solitude that once was a source of inspiration is killing me these days

I have 100s of reasons to make mistakes but i am still holding on to make none...!!!

Sponti - 1

2009-03-23T09:55:00.004+05:30

More then thinking about "what's the right thing to do", we spend more time thinking "what's not the right thing to do" and hence we assume that everything we have done is right

P.S : I am not frequent to blogging because I am not in a right frame of mind to write positive things

P.P.S : Sponti stands for Spontaneous, and since I am going through a series of thoughts every second I might end up making a century of these spontaneous lines :)

My Take : Two

2009-03-10T17:13:00.003+05:30

Those who had read this blog of mine may or may not have been waiting for the complete discussion but last Sunday while I was wondering here and there, something clicked me which according to me is an analogy to what I believe about love :

Love is like a TV set with several channels of Care, Romance, Understanding, Support, Fights etc, but still TV is a TV you can't say set of channels as your TV similarly Love is love, you can't call all the characteristics of love as love in itself.

P.S : I am sure its bit confusing but can't help it :P

Freedom

2009-03-10T15:22:00.000+05:30

Freedom is not worth having if it does not connote freedom to err. It passes my comprehension how human beings, be they ever so experienced and able, can delight in depriving other human beings of that precious right.

--By Mahatma Gandhi

Cricket !!!

2009-03-08T23:13:00.004+05:30

Not a post that many of you would like to read but still I couldn't resist. I just saw Today's match b/w india and new zealand and there was just one thing going in my mind :

Cricket is a religion and Sachin is its God !!!

And for all those Journalists / News Makers and Critics, please don't ever doubt the guy, he is an awesome person and a 100% committed professional.

I hope I would have the same passion for my profession when I reach that level in my career.

P.S : Does any one know if the biography of sachin is available in market, if yes what is its name ?

There is a lot I can learn from the person :)

Take : One

2009-03-04T16:22:00.004+05:30

I have a new wallpaper on my desktop and it goes like this :

"For everything you have missed, you gained something else; And for everything you gain, you lose something else.It is about you outlook towards life, you can either regret or rejoice"

My take : One regrets or rejoices depends on the priorities one has for the things that are being gained or lost.

Leave your comments.

Conclusion of the Day !!!

2009-02-28T19:09:00.003+05:30

I would write in detail some time later but this is what was concluded from the discussion I had with my friends today :

1) People fall in love more then once but only after they complete "Moving on" phase i.e the same mistake is "Committed" twice or more :P

2) Love just happens and you can't do anything about it, surprisingly most of us can't figure out when and how it happened

P.S : I strongly disagree to the point 2 and would present my view on it in a separate post, please drop your thoughts about the same !!!

God !!!

2009-02-24T17:08:00.007+05:30

I am currently in office and reading many random blogs and I'm here to share what I felt after reading all these blogs :

Difference is the only similarity God created in all of us, respect the differences and life would be a peaceful journey :)

A man in a Air Conditioned car may be richer then the beggar on the road but he might not be tougher then him to live on street in a chilly winter or a hot summer & luckily I respect both....

Friends

2009-02-22T21:19:00.003+05:30

Somehow feeling senti about the word "Friend / Friends" so writing the very same thing I wrote on my other blog :

Friends are not those who are there when you need them......
Friends are those who are there when you don't want anyone to be !!!

As a universal friend there is just onething I learnt, always have more then one best friend, it gives you a liberty of not to depend on just one person.

P.S : This is one of the very few blog I have published from my home :)

Birthday Blog !!!

2009-01-21T14:45:00.007+05:30

Yup yup, you guessed it right, today is my Happy Birthday and officially I am 18 now :P , unofficially still 12 :)

I thought it would be just another day since I know just handful of 5-10 individuals in Hyderabad and none of them remembers my Birthday; but when one keeps his expectations low, everything that comes in the way is cherished and same has happened with me. Had i thought that I don't have anyone who would wish me by person, I would have get sad but on the other hand I expected just 2-3 calls hence every call I am getting is making me happier and even though I don't have Birthday celebration plans, I still feel very comfortable and not sad at all.

The benefits of living away from the home and friends is that they try everything to make your day special and expresses lots of love and care which always gives a good feeling, and everyone exactly did that :)

I did remove my Birthday from orkut just to make sure that everyone is not compelled to wish me and also that I don't have to treat 100's of people :P but still enough people surprised me among them were my school friends :)

The sad part is I still had to come to office and have to stay here as long as I am supposed to even though I'm just busy writing blogs. I have no plans after my office, may be just a normal dinner and more conversations with the friends who would have woke up late only to find that 21st January is about to end !!!

Thanks in advance for your wishes !!!

P.S : I am trying to update my birthday on orkut and now it is not co-operating !!!

Chemical Lochaa !!

2009-01-12T12:27:00.010+05:30

When was the last time you heard the same two words and the context in which they were used !!!

I am sure you know the answer and if you don't; then leave it and continue to read :)

Anyways, what I am going to write is a long awaited post and delay got even more because I couldn't think of a simpler name for the post since the content is going to be lot more complicated and confusing.

Lets take it this way, "Chemical Locha" in some movie referred to a state of mind when Munna Bhai could see and feel "Baapu" when other were not able to and as per my learning/observations/experiences, its same with us.

Everything we feel and do is a state of our mind but we are in so deep control of our mind that we see what our mind wants us to see, we feel what we should feel, we act the way our mind wants to act be it right or wrong coz we are only told one of them by our mind.

We get sad when we fail at something, we get over excited when we achieve something, why don't we accept failure and just argue with ourselves that we didn't deserve it !! Why is it that exams are always taken as a difficult part ? We want to sleep till late because its a chilly morning, we want to stay awake late coz we want to celebrate new year at 12, is chilly morning on 31st December colder then night of the same day ??

Other side of chemical locha is that,most of us underestimate ourselves and we give up before trying our best for it and more or less the reason is "fear of loosing", a preoccupied state of our mind. Why do we always pursue things which we feel we would be good at, why don't we do pursue something which we don't have any idea about, coz if we are good we would be good at everything, why do we believe that we can't be better then the people we admire or the great people we look up to. No one is born genius; everyone learns, acquires and develops skills, why can't each one us give a try to be better then the best rather then giving up at the very start.

The last form of Chemical Locha is fairly complicated and I am sure most of you would disagree but since Controversy exists every where so let it be here too

We do believe that some individuals have higher mental strength / toughness then others and what we refer here is the strength to control our temptations or to over come our addictions and also at times the strength one needs to survive in tough painful times , but does this strength also come into picture when we talk of human emotions, isn't a girl's insecurity or a guy's urge for sex a state of mind and can be controlled ? I personally believe that the emotional imbalance that co-exists in our day to day life is nothing but a subconscious state of mind coz we know what's right for us yet we act the way we are supposed to.... the question is why and answer is yet to be discovered !!!

P.S : I am having free time in office and the tradition to blog from office continues :)

Random Facts !!!

2009-01-07T22:37:00.004+05:30

What I am about to write is a random observation of mine and not directed to any single person, so don't get offended by anything.

Secondly, I need a help from any fellow blogger because I always have so many topics to write on and as soon as I sit to write, its all blank. Can any one help , suggest some better way ?

Now, as the topic suggests this is about some arbit and stupid facts/observations which I have noticed in past 4-5 years :-

1 - A girl always like to have a female pet be it a dog,cat,parrot etc --- Don't know why ??

2 - "A lot can happen over a cup of coffee" -- tag line of Cafe Coffee Day !!

3 - Every employed person is unhappy with the job no matter how high paying it is, yet no one quits a job for nothing

4 - Happiness is not an Explicit function,it is a function of a function with happiness as an independent variable

5 - Intelligence is a inherited character and is not a function of college or a field of study

6 - Human mind never argues with itself, it only convinces where as it always argues with others and doesn't convince -- Conclusion : Every one has a hypocrite with in them !!!

7 - We make our own rules, we break them for our own reason and still blame others !!!

8 - If all men are dogs then all girls are bitches !!!

9 - All girls are the same and same goes for the boys !!!

10 - "Future Perfect tense" and "Present continuous tense" can never go side by side !!!

P.S : Some of the facts are too complicated to understand so please don't get into the roots of the origin of these facts !!! :)

Nappy Yew Hear - 2009

2009-01-02T10:43:00.000+05:30

After writing the previous post, I set down again and wanted to write something more about 2008 but then didn't..reason..well I checked out almost all the blogs I have on my page & found one thing in common, everyone had written one blog in last one week and I didn't want to break the rules so I restricted myself to one for the week only :D

And yesterday while I was getting bored at home, I read some of the blogs and figured out that most of us are too excited to write on the 1st Jan , don't know why !!! May be because we believe what ever we do on first day of the year is carried to everyday for the rest of year and may be that's why I didn't write coz I expect everyday for the rest of the year to be different for me :D

Lets cut the crap and wish you a very happy and a prosperous new year, I hope you had a fantastic first day of the year and already making plans for rest of the year but case was not the same with me. I didn't do much except surfing through you tube, playing games, reading any arbit stuff and more importantly spent a significant amount of time to personalize my blog yet again and hopefully a new and a improved blog (looks wise) would be out in next couple of days :-)

Once that is done, I am sure I would write more meaningful blogs than this !!!

Wish you all a very happy new year once again and best wishes for the future !!!

P.S : My manager asked my to change my habit of leaving "!!!" at the end of sentences :)

Strange Year - 2008

2008-12-31T10:20:00.000+05:30

After hearing on numerous TV Channels in past one week, I am compelled to start this blog of mine with this line... " Today is the last day of the year 2008" ..... the year which was a strange in its own sense, I discovered and re discovered myself time and again. There is a lot that has happened in this one year and I am sure each one of us has the same thoughts about it, one more interesting that's common between most of us is the pace with which this year passed :P

Anyways, let me share good part of the year, It all started on 8th Jan, when I got my first job, after an interview where i asked more questions to interviewers than they asked me. There is this strange thing about interviews, you can never know where you went wrong in an interview and mostly the one you think you have screwed a bit would be the successful one.

The next and final semester @ IIT went by faster then any other semester, nights were shorter then ever, even the chilly winter of Delhi couldn't restrict us to go for a 2 KM walk at 3 in the morning, Room parties were a more frequent events and each party had an emotional ending. The last time we walked from college to hostel was the longest it had ever been in past 4 years.... and I should stop it now or else the post would be renamed to "Farewell to my college life" !!!

What happened next was not unexpected but it was still strange, I landed up in Hyderabad starting a new phase of my life where I would be earning, supposedly more independent then ever, but it didn't turn out to be that way and the only reason is being alone in a crowdy place of lonely people !!!

Surprisingly, transition from college to work not so difficult for me which is the case with most of the graduates, may be because I never tried to adjust with the 'system' or tried to look for the loop holes in the 'system', I am always happy working with my strengths..anyways that doesn't matter..what matters is I am doing good and happy to buildup on my confidence.

Last couple of months have been entirely dedicated to the "Corporate world" and the most used phrase here is " that's how it goes" and no one gives a shit about it !!! One more good news is; in spite of all the Recession in US, Terrorist Attacks in Mumbai and Laying off across the world, I got my first increment even though it is a negligible one, I was also given a minimum bonus for my "satisfactory" work !!

On an whole , 2008 was a strange but eventful year with not much of surprises, lots of energy, experience and emotions !!

Carrying the same Enthusiasm, Excitement and Expectations to 2009 !!! :)

Wish you all a very happy and a prosperous new year, May god bless all of us and lets hope that we get to see less number of terrorists attacks and lot less companies filing for Bankruptcy !!

Last but not the least, I picked up blogging in 2008 and hoping to reach new heights on web world in 2009 !!!

Cheers :)

P.S : It might not be my last blog of the year !!!

Merry Christmas :)

2008-12-25T14:25:00.000+05:30

First and foremost a very very sorry to all the fellow readers of my blog, not because I didn't write any blog in past two months, but because they didn't get a chance to write an expert comment on my blog :D

Now the question is why didn't I write any blog in past two months !! The answer is the very same reason that I wrote blogs two months back, I hope you might have read it somewhere on my blog that i wrote my blogs from my office desk and since from past two months i was heavily loaded with the work, i never got time to pass through a proxy server and use "Blogspot.com" and what ever time I got, I tried to make my blog look different.

Anyways, now since I am back (hopefully), i would write about the zillions of topics that I thought. Today is "Christmas" and I am happy as well as sad, happy because I have time to write a blog from my office desk and sad because I am in Office and don't have a holiday :-(

And it has happened once again, I can't think of what to write even though there are so many thoughts running through my mind simultaneously...Mumbai Blasts, India beating Australia and England, Time up for dada and jumbo, Billi 2008 and so many things...

Let me consolidate a bit and will get back to the blog in next couple of hours !!!

Dasvidaniya !!!

Worker's Compensation !!!

2008-10-24T17:38:00.000+05:30

I am sure title of the post wont make any sense till now, coz it is not making any sense to me while I am writing this post. I am currently in my office, got two free hours after 2-3 weeks of hectic work and thats the reason I didn't write any post, though as always I felt like writing so many things but blogging never became first priority in these two weeks.

I haven't mentioned it anywhere on this blog but i'm currently working as a Catastrophic Risk Modeling Analyst in one of the many reinsurance companies around the world, I wont go into detail of my work profile or something but while I was working on my Cedants from last two weeks, one of my colleagues was working on some other which was "Abbreviated" as Worker's Compensation"... what it means is we make a valuation of human life. Sounds disgusting but thats the way it goes, we have always been taught that Human life is precious and there is no monetary value for; it but in this era of globalization even human life is meant for business. Softwares are there which calculate the losses that would occur in terms of human lives which are then multiplied by the value of each human life and the resulting number is meant for business.

I felt bad/awakward/weird knowing how can the valuation of life be made so simple, in just 1000's of dollars. Won't it be a better idea to spend 1000's of dollars in ensuring safety rather then making sure that a person gets a "compensation" after he/she is no more existing in the real world.

P.S : kindly have some patience,my blog would have more frequent posts in a couple of days from now !!

Updates !!!

2008-10-10T15:50:00.000+05:30

Hey folks,

I am back from my 9 days of holidays and it doesn't feel nice to back coz i would have to wake up on time n go to office and work hard there like i am doing now :P

Anyways this is what happening in last 10 days :-

1) A tiring journey along with an excitement to be home, ate and slept a lot but it hardly made any difference to my health. Had a relaxing week after quite a bit of time.

2) Feels nice that I am earning, feels much better when others say it :D and feels best that I can buy things for my parents and cousins and don't need to give a second thought about it :)

3) Missed blogging, specially my habit of reading blogs whenever i used to get time. One good news was that my black berry services were working on roaming, so i could chat and do some surfing if I am getting bored.

4) Made friendship with one of the cutest girl i ever saw, would upload her pic very soon ;) she was indeed cute, just like me :D

5) Used to check out my blog once in a day to find out if any one has dropped any comment wishing to be a co-author of my other blog.

Things I need to do in next one week :-

1- Meeting two of my school friends over the week end after 2-3 years, so lots of things to talk about then.

2- Some blogs are still pending :( , need to sort out the blog rolled list of my blog , need to improve the back ground and design of both the blogs, at the same time keep posting :D

3- Study as much as I can, coz I need to improve with my time management for CAT-08 and at the same time, need to work harder at office for the renewal season.

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Thats all for now, will try to be more frequent from now on !!

Request : Please do check out the other blog and leave your comments, good or bad !!

PS : I recently discovered that I have a habit of leaving exclamation marks at the end of each line !!! :P

Holidays :)

2008-09-30T21:34:00.001+05:30

This is my second post from my one n only electronic gadget, my dear black berry which happens to be my very good friend coz it keeps me connected with every1 n everywhere !! The reason I have to post via this is coz I have been kept very busy all this while, lots of work n lots of tiredness and inspite of numerous attempts I cudnt complete my previous posts, and now finally I am writing,sitting at secndrabad station with my train to home in just abount an hour :)

So for the next one week, precisely till 9th of sept I would be away from the blog world and let's hope that I would catch up, once I come back from home !!!

Sorry to all the handful readers of my blog, I ws very busy with my office work and studies !! Will try to be more frequent with my interesting posts :D

One more news, I have not yet started with my fiction blog coz I couldn't personalize the theme n looks of the blog (I understood quite a bit of html n xtml) would do that after I spent some time for it. For the mean while I have started another blog 'the-x-effect' which is about the witty, inspirational, humours and self constructed one liners !! I would try to keep it that way but still I would be very happy to share it with other bloggers, who would add up their spicy n natural thoughts !! So all those who wanna be part of it in every sense, please leave a comment, I would give you the access or whatever it is known as.

P.S : leave comments good or bad coz it helps me to improve and also keeps me going !!

P.S 2 : black berry services doesn't work while roaming :( !!!

Theories - Part I

2008-09-09T16:45:00.001+05:30

Its been quite a bit of time since I wrote my previous post, and all this while I had so many things to write; actually there are 4-5 posts waiting in the "Edit Posts" section to be completed !!! Lets hope I would complete those soon....

As the title suggest the post is about some "Arbit" theories that I have discovered/framed in last 2 years or so....

1) Theory of Probability of life : "Death" is the only thing in the future we are sure about hence in Mathematical terms the Probability of Dying is = 1 (Max Value), yet in our whole life we escape "Death" millions of times which implies that Probability of Dying = 0 (Zero) (1/1000000 ~ 0)

Hence the best thing we can do is "Live Ever Moment of Life"

2) Theory of Relativity : I am neither an Albert Einstein nor I'm fond of Physics, my theory is far far from physics and science. Anyways, my theory states that "Every adjective which is subjective is relative in nature" i.e Everything we feel or say is relative though we assume it to be absolute. We call something good coz there exists something which is Bad,the same is the case with love and hatred, also with intelligent and ignorant. The statement can further be concluded that everything we say is in comparison to someone else.

3) Theory of Mistakes v 1.0 : Its a well known fact that we all make mistakes and lot many great people have advised us to learn from the mistakes because the more we learn the more knowledgeable we get, the more knowledgeable we get the successful we become. What it also mean is, successful people make lots of mistakes, so if you thinking of becoming successful, make lots of mistakes and if you wish to be successful always, only make mistakes :)

4) Theory of Mistakes v 1.1 : The modified version of the above theory states that "learn from the other people's mistakes", the more we get to know about other's mistakes; less would be the probability that we repeat the same mistake; in other words the more we get to know "what not to do" and hence we understand what need to be done.

"There is more to learn more failures than success"

Last but not the least

5) Theory of Conspiracy : Everything being said for or against a gal is a "Conspiracy" because there are believers and disbelievers !!! -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

(More theories would be updated soon, keep checking out the space)

Note : Sample Post on my "Test Blog" has got a comment too, didn't ever expected that !!!

PS : Above theories are 100 % subjected to improve with time !!

Recent news : My blog and my writing has been liked by most of the readers who know me in real and I hope they all have been honest with me .

What An Idea !!! ;)

2008-09-05T11:54:00.000+05:30

Its been over a week since I wrote my last blog and over 50 days I have been a part of this blogger's community and all this while I have came across many many blogs, most of them are like daily diaries where people write about their lives and things happening around with them or with their friends.For them blogging is a mode of sharing things and their take on everything.

Some of the blogs are poetic, with hindi and english Poems and Short notes written in the most beautiful language or rather they are "Beautifully expressed thoughts" or "Smoothly written emotions" !!!

Some of the blogs are out of "shear frustration with life", full of negative emotions and hatred and some how found the same bloggers commenting on the blogs that describes life as a "A Beautiful Gift by god", can't really think if they are confused or just pretend to be that way !!! It only adds up to me belief that "People don't Change, only Circumstances Do"

Some interesting blogs are about "Life and Its Philosophy", many of these blogs talk about "Ideal" things in life, they talk about "can and should" which is far different from "is, was and will", it does leave with an effect on us, similar to "A Mouth Freshner after a bottle of beer" which smells good; as long as we can control our desire to get hold of another one.

Some blogs with a high amount of traffic concentrates primarily on "the spicy stuff" , about a girl and her relationship, or may be a girl busy with blind dates or just a "Conspiratorial Topic" which leads to lots of questions and confusion in everyone's mind.

Whats strange is that Very few blogs are fictions, Strange coz except me I don't know any one who likes to read and don't read fiction (in real not on blog) and yet there is so scarcity of fiction blogs. Don't know why I read one of those fiction blogs and fell in love with that, primarily coz it was a very realistic soft story and being emotional myself it touched my heart. .So while reading all these blogs and specially that fiction one, two things came into my mind :-

1) Should I try to write some fiction !!!
2) If I am able to write one,What shall be the main theme of the blog, that can be interesting and at the same time can continue with my objective of sharing my learning through life !!! or in short,It must fulfill my Aim with out using "Can and Should" words.

One more thing which was at the back of my mind was the absence of any blog on Guy's take on Dating/Blind Dating with girls. Come on, we all know that if a girl is dating there has to be a guy too, if girls can write about their experiences why isn't there any guy who shares similar things, may be we guys are too shy to share it with our counter parts or may be we are too interested to gain undeserving respect/compliment rather then an honest criticism !! (Guys do share these things with themselves)

Anyways, as it happens with every idea, it happened with this one too, I was sitting in a private place concentrating on just one thing and suddenly I felt, I Got it !! 100s of questions and thoughts started to stimulate my brain simultaneously, and I am still confused if I can write some fiction or not. So here I am looking for some suggestions / ideas for two things :-

--> Would it be interesting if I write some fiction about a guy's take on dating with number of girls??
-- >What shall be the name of the blog ? Coz I can think of only one title [ Ab Tak Chappan (56) ]

So please drop in some comments about your take on my idea !!!

Note : The pic has nothing to do with me !!!! Its here coz I liked it and it brought big smile to my face !!!!

Ñarcissisш Vs $elf Conſidence

2008-08-29T15:58:00.000+05:30

Those who read this post of mine would have known how I was tagged as a Narcissist and all my efforts to safe guard myself from the attack by maggie went in vain.Some one said it truely "always listen to girls and never ever argue with them, guy will always loose" I am following it and its quite helpful :D Anyways, I'm not sharing my "gyan" on this post; may be some other time.

Since the day I was labeled as a narcissist, I was doubting myself, is it bad to know yourself and love yourself ? Is it a waste of time to introspect and start knowing what is right for you and to discover the formula which would solve your equation of life !!! Did I over do it knowing myself much better then any one else could have done ?? or does it come out as a try to get some attraction by talking about myself ?? With the course of time I realized its not at all bad, its a positive sign, it helps me with the decision making and it keeps the spark alive that Chetan Bhagat talks about. With the course of time I learnt that there is a thin line between being Narcissist and being Self Confident.

According to Dictionary

Narcissist means : In ordination fascination with oneself; excessive self -love, erotic gratification derived from admiration of one's own physical or mental attributes !!!

Self Confident means : Sure of oneself; having no uncertainty about one's own abilities, correctness, successfulness, etc !!!!

So what to call a person who is in love with him self and does talk a lot about his abilities, correctness and successfulness, if not exactly that; then at least his learning and his approach towards the life. Or the one who is trying to figure out a better way to live life in the present world without compromising on the true goal of life , without harming and hurting any one. What would you call a person who has a self belief and is trying to do the right things knowing the obstacles on the way.

Yeah, i am exactly like that, I have some how figured out a little bit about the "Ideal or a Perfect"way to live life and feel like taking it to the next level which is letting others know about it as well, its not the easiest but still very practical as long as you know your self, I have been appreciated and encouraged to continue with it, but at times I try too hard to share the right things to others and ask them to follow it too and that's when the confidence turns into narcissism !!!

"No one likes to see the mirror when you don't look good in it",so when I tell someone to follow the right thing no matter what, my confidence of "to be good to others" turns into a narcissism of being good then him/her. So is it wrong to be confident and not sharing your confidence with others ? If it is that then let me be An Exception coz had Gandhi ji didn't believe in his values India wouldn't have got its Independence, had Bill Gates didn't believe in his Vision there wouldn't have been "information technology, had Google didn't believe in its "Innovation" I wouldn't have have shared this with you through blog!!!! Lets share the "Confidence, Values & Vision" with others and contribute to make this world a better place to live !!!!

Cheers !!!!

conVocAted !!!!

2008-08-26T16:46:00.000+05:30

Continuing with this blog,after an hour of walk and with nostalgic feelings I slept around 2:30 AM with an alarm for 6:30 AM, so that I can wake up on time for the day I have been waiting for from last 5 years (1 yr prep + 4 yrs B.Tech) ,no one would have bothered to wake up so early and reach IIT D's Main building on a Saturday had it not been our Graduation Day,So I woke up and got ready as soon as possible; I thought I am doing wrong thing by wearing casuals on this day but to my surprise all (B.Tech) were just like that only !! Everyone was given an Orange gown with a blue hat , we called it Jaadu Dress , coz it was something like that only !! After an arbit photo session we moved to the ConvoCation Hall, Sat there for almost 3 hours doing nothing, just talking here and there, no one hardly listened to any speech coz we were given a written format of it, which we read as quickly as we could and used rest of time for more important things !!! (Gossiping and Sleeping) :D Yeah some of us really slept during the convocation address !!!!

One by one everyone was called by his/her name and were handed their invaluable, prestigious and well deserving degree :P Felt really touched when a handicapped guy with a walker came over to take his degree, almost everyone was giving him an applause and appreciated his determination and will. Sitting on the upper floor of the hall among rest of my friends,I was just counting minutes left before we would be called to stand in the queue and was just hoping that everything goes well and was praying for the Director who had the responsibility to shake hands and hand over around 800 Degrees,didn't wanted him to give up and say that he is too tired to give more degrees !!! Looking at the faces of the HOD's sitting there, I could only remember myself sleeping with eyes wide open in many of the lectures I had @ IIT.

After almost 2 n half hours, we were asked to proceed down and to line up for our turn.Standing in the queue I felt as if I am the captain of a sports team who just won a world cup and waiting to lift it, that was the level of excitement and emotions I was going through.I was like 70 % excited, 20 % emotional and 10% nervous, don't know why, my hand were sweating, i was thinking of how important this moment is yet we just had to control our emotions coz everyone was seeing us, I was suppose to shake hands with the director, bow towards our chief guest n just walk away !!!

And then the moment arrived, my name was called and I walked to the Director and surprisingly he said "Congratulations Ashish" and I was surprised,just for a moment I thought how does he know my name, does he really remember everyone's name or is it just mine ?? Anyways, I bowed to the chief guest and walked away,really wanted to celebrate the moment right there on the stage but couldn't, and as I thought, everyone was congratulating each other just out side the gate, everyone had a broad smile on their faces and were hugging each other, on the way back to my place I hugged everyone I could, even those who were still in the queue waiting for their turn. We reached our places and found a photographer standing there, irrespective of what was happening down there, we shouted and asked him to capture the moment with our degrees in hand, and luckily he did !!! Same process kept on going till the moment when final Undergraduate was given his degree, we were already shouting and making noises while he was on his way,the funny guy looked at us and thanked us as if we were congratulating him for his degree !! :D It was very hard to control the emotions and yeah the Hat too coz we just wanted to take it off and throw it in the air !!

After 15 mins or so our names were officially added to the book of Students who passed out from Indian Institute of Technology, Delhi till date !! It was followed by National Anthem and by some Sanskrit Shloks, all the profs moved towards the exit and as soon as last one was out of our sight we did it, yeah we took off our "Jaadu Waala Hat" and threw it in the Air,we laughed, we shouted,we made lots of noise,we congratulated and hugged each other and slowly moved towards the exit !! It was all Orange outside, no parent could have sighted his son/daughter and same happened with me, I ran two complete rounds of the place before I could see my parents, though on the way I was able to get my self clicked 4-5 times in some or the other group of friends,couple of times me with my degree !! ((Snaps are still be received to be uploaded))
So finally after many many Kodak moments, we all settled and bid farewell to each other, moved with our parents or to respective homes, taking back with us the memories of "IIT Delhi's 39th Convocation" and a happy ending to the four years of Journey through ups and downs,successes and failures, hard work and commitment and ofcourse hell lot of fun !!!! What we also took with us was our very precious and well deserving Degree which tagged us as an IITian for ever !!!

Note :

1) Some feelings can't be expressed in words and I had many of those which are yet to be expressed

2) The word "Well Deserved" is not over rated and might be explained in the future !!! :D

3) Many pictures are yet to be received and would be uploaded as soon as I get them

Kaala Jamoon !!!!

2008-08-23T11:39:00.001+05:30

Wow !! This is cool, I can blog from anywhere now even when I'm in middle of a lake or even when I am in some private place or else while having a choclate fantasy like m hving rigt now. The reason being very simple, I got my new black berry a.k.a 'kaala jamoon' wid unlimited acess to the internet :) already installed yahoo msnzer n gtalk; so can b online @ any time and anywhere !!! Though I have been given this for official purpose but I think I can use it more efficiently and make full use of the technology n time !!!

I hope I will blog more frequently from now on wid live telecast of wats happening around me. I m walking on a busy road of hyderabad so let me jusr sign off for now n reach to my destination safely !!

Enjoy and have fun !!

Cheers to black berry :)

IIT Delhi Revisited !!!

2008-08-20T09:57:00.000+05:30

Firstly a very sorry to the handful of readers of my blog for not posting anything from quite a some time now.I was having my very good days and not very good ones, my system was down with fever so was I, had 4 days off from office so couldn't really access anything and all this while i kept thinking of hundred of blogs i wish to write but just couldn't pen down anything.So I am still clueless about what to write.Anyways let me try....As I mentioned in my last blog about my Convocation so this blog might end up about those final 4 days ..or rather 'Masti k chaar din'

It was 6th of august when me along with my 4 college frens boarded the train from secundrabad and excitement to go back to college was on our faces. More then going back to college we were more happy to meet college friends and 4 days of no work and complete fun. Skipping the details of 24(+2) hours of journey let me brief about my days and psuedo days (nights) in my alma mater, IIT Delhi. Reached friend's room in some hostel at around 8:30 PM, didn't had any lunch or dinner that day during the journey so was bit hungry, but just after usual hugging n all i was told it is supposed to be a party tonight coz its sort of reunion of 7 of us :-) , don't know why i just forgot all my tiring journey and got on with the things, walked all the way from hostel to main gate, around 2 kms, reached the nearest hang out place (SDA) and got things which would let us enjoy for the rest of night ;) So here we were once again , one small room of our hostel and around 8 guys sitting on one bed and every other possible place , but there was something different about this night, some of us were in formals, no songs on high volume, we were just gossiping about how life has been in last two months, how it feels to be working and how is it different from college life and may be we were enjoying far much just being with each other after a long time. I don't remember when did i sleep off in between all these talks but i do remember that i was a bit high and i went to meet my juniors and other friends from my year who are still in IIT. It felt great, so relaxed, so enjoyable and was always smiling :)

The next day was even more surprising, it rained all day in delhi, all roads were jammed to the max, had to run for 2 kms in that rain to reach college at 3 PM, coz we had so called rehearsals for our convo, i don't think i ever tried to reach somewhere so punctual, anyways I was 15 mins late and found out that all B.Tech are still on their way, don't know why i ran so much !!!! Reaching convocation hall I only realized that all B.Tech guys have been asked to sit on the upper floor, don't know why IIT Admin treats us so differently may be coz we are not Ideal IITians but still take all credit of it :D

Anyways, half an hour into rehearsals and we were already getting bored coz it was Matkes & Phadoos turn for rehearsing and we would be having the same after 90 mins, so without wasting any time we moved over to our nescafe for a bigger get together, around 200 B.Tech talking loud and laughing out louder, everyone having something or the other and no one knows who will pay for it, I myself had a maggie and an ice tea, don't know who paid for me :D After 2 hours of talking and get together we reached our places back, did some rehearsal for 10 mins and back out enjoying :D

The night followed was the one I missed most after leaving the college, I was out for a walk at 1 AM in the night, I went to nescafe,saw someone's Birthday Celebrated in a typical Hostel Style, I had my midnight snacks at the Canteen, went to main building and felt nostalgic about the infinite late night and early morning walks we had,I couldn't have so much freedom of living anywhere else except @ IIT D. On the way back to hostel, I saw a group of guys walking in the middle of road and chilling out,some guys playing basket ball in the court, some one was trying his hand on tennis and I just wished I could rewind the time and stay at this place for one more year without loosing anything !! I was happy to be Convocated very next day yet I didn't want to go from this place, All I could think was how to make this happen; though at the back of my mind I knew its impossible unless i decide to be a Prof at IIT :P !!! So I came back to hostel and went to the bed thinking of the "Convocation Day : 9th August 2008" !!!!

Kal, Aaj aur Kal !!!!

2008-08-05T21:59:00.000+05:30

The title of the post is being adopted by an old hindi movie starring Prithiviraj Kapoor, Raj Kapoor and Randhir Kapoor (if i am correct), the movie was about thinking of 3 different generations and problems related to them but being inspired by Pritam's music, I think I would be let off for any charges against me for using this tittle for my own purpose.Anyways, I am not going to write about 3 generations coz I dont have any, I am youngest in the family and still single :D , so you might have guessed by now kal, aaj aur kal here refers to my past ,present n future !!!

Since I haven't posted any thing about my school or college life any where on the web world, I take this opportunity for it to be one of the very few, to pen down my experiences during school n college days. Though it was one of the main reason of my "Past Blogging Career" to write about it coz I could share my views about my Happy days and Not so Happy Days but i couldn't. Anyways past days are gone and life is all changed now, with no more college days and no hostel life but still, I think I am left with 4 days to write about it, 4 days coz after exact 4 days I would be graduated and would be officially Tagged as B.Tech from Civil Engineering Department of IIT Delhi for ever !! Yeah Yeah I'm having my convocation on coming saturday !!!

Those who know me from my school days would hardly believe that I actually made it to one of the Premier Institute of India and actually managed to complete that in the alloted 4 years, coz I wasn't into studies till I was 17, I still remember March 2003, Indian Cricket team was in south africa, It was India vs Pakistan on 1st march and I saw every ball of it, knowing that I have my board exams from 19th of March. I saw every match including India vs Australia,the final of it,on 23rd March, I saw that till 3 AM in the night and I had one of toughest exam on the very next morning at7:30 AM (if required I can share details of that too :D). Before the year 2003, I never thought I need to study for my living coz My father is working, my brother is a genius so why should I work hard when I already know my "safe' future, another reason being the least expectations from me since I never used to touch my school bag when I was at home, always busy playing cricket, going here n there and one more important thing which you might be thinking of, I was never into gals, I was in a guys school, wasn't much interested into Tutions and all, always tried to study by myself so hardly interacted with girls. Actually I was so stupid that I couldn't really figure out why would a girl (who now i think had a crush on me) try to talk to a rude and arrogant person like me, so I just ignored her and went on :D

(I know even you calling me stupid now)

Anyways being shortest in my friend circle and youngest at the home, I had a fair bit of advantage and also some disadvantages :( . So here I was with no aim in my life, no specialty, no idea about the future and more importantly I wasn't confused coz I didn't want to do anything at all. (People get confused when they want to do many things at a time). Some positives about me where, I was consistent with my results (83 %-85%), I loved maths and still do it, was very short tempered (yeah i take it as positive,continue reading you will find why) and had an attitude to be happy with himself, I never compared myself with others and I still don't !!! So after completing my 12th and with a good enough rank in one of the competitive exam, I was all set to join the best college of my state in best possible branch, but some how I wasn't happy with it, coz I didn't want to belong to the same group of students I shared school with (My Best friends being exceptions), so I thought of doing something big, some different with out knowing what that "something" was. Here I must thank my Brother (I know thanks is too little word), he some how used my short tempered nature for my benefit and asked me to do a simple thing, clearing a exam call JEE !!!! I agreed and moved over to Kota, the Mecca of JEE Prep, with only thing in mind and to prove my brother that I am not that stupid as he thinks, I studied n studied, 16 hours a day, for next 9 months, i didn't know where JEE would take me to, do i really want to do that or not, I had no idea !!! But then with nothing in my mind and "Something" to do, I chose it to be that way !!

So after all the hard work and exams, on 18th June, results were out and a very happy excited voice (my brother) told me my rank, and I went into depression, I was as low with my average energy as my brother was above , so I spent next 3 days without having food and sitting in one corner of my home, without talking much, my parents trying to cheer me up and It effected my the least !! I am sure you would be surprise that I behaved that why after clearing JEE, but thats how life goes when you don't compare your self with others and keep high expectations from yourself !!!

I finally felt nice when I was given a Nokia 2100 as my gift, and I told my parents i wont study any more now, I would just go and enjoy my college life, the promises that I made to myself were 1) I would atleast have one very good female friend in college (just a friend), was too keen n curious about it
2) I won't study coz I am already in top 1% of India's Science maths studying students and since college is the fun life, i would just enjoy the life !!!

As it turned out, both of my Promises/ assumptions were wrong, neither was I good enough by nature/behavior to be someone's friend nor was I one of the top 1 % of those students. It all went wrong for the first two years of my college life, primarily coz I forgot my basics, I started comparing myself with others and I tried to be what I was not !!! So I just wasted 2 years of beautiful college life, I wasn't able to be friends with my hostel mates, could never talk with any one of my college girls (Though its diff. that there were hardly any1 I felt like talking to) and since I had so many pre assumed notions that everyone found me so weird and strange person to company with. Out of shear frustration from academic system and life in general, I convinced myself to live for myself and be myself, no matter what everyone thinks of me, that again turned out to be wrong decision and don't know why I started with a fair bit of introspection and broke all rules I had for myself, it went for a month if i remember correctly (May-June 2006) and finally realized what my exact problem was. I was trying too hard to change myself and to be what i was not.I had always been positive and hard working individual then why did I try to take short cuts, why did I try to behave the way others would like me to behave, knowing that I can't be that !!!

So after two long years, I finally improved myself or rather started behaving naturally, what i really was, I was able to use my strengths for my good be it working hard, be it positive attitude,be it just helping others or be it just behaving like a general; kind and humble person. I could see the change with in me, i was feeling more happy about myself and about others too. Most of the person whom i met there after liked my company, found me a good person, some one who they can trust on, a nice person to talk to and a person who can make them feel positive about everything. This went on for the next two years and I feel very very lucky that some friends did change their perception about me and accepted me the way I am. I was very lucky to have this person around me, coz he is like a mirror to me with a different perception about everything I thought and it helped me correcting myself many a times !! At some point of time in my college life, the word "Friend" was the word I used to hate coz more or less it covers every kind of relationship but now I love this word for the very same reason.

I am getting a bit senti now, knowing that I would be meeting all of them in the next 2 days, feels really happy to go back to college and meet all of those who did help me making me a better person !!! Things which I wanted to write but missed writing this blog would be updated very soon !!! So keep checking the space out. The most important part of the post is in the next paragraph so continue reading...!!!!

Learning

The Primary reason to write the post was to share what I learnt all these years, during my school and college life ... and the following thoughts are my own personal feelings, i'm not expecting you to agree with all of them.

1) Attitude is one of the most important thing in life, coz it reflects how you would react when you are pushed against the wall.

2) College days are the most memorable and wonderful years of life so just enjoy those knowing where you heading.

3) Always remember your Basics and use your strengths !!! Act and work the way you naturally do.

4) Always keep less expectations, it helps you to enjoy what ever you achieve and your attitude decides the next step.

5) Never have pre assumed notions about everything, believe in facts and figures coz things are not always the way you assume them to be.

6) Change is the only constant thing in life so accept the changes as they come !!!

Thats enough for this post, I am already getting late, got a train to catch in just about couple of hours, All comments (good or bad) would be appreciated !!!

Stay happy and keep smiling !!!

Enjoy the life and I hope I would have a great time !!!

Happy Friendship Day !!!

2008-08-04T14:53:00.000+05:30

Its been really long (exact 4 days) since I wrote my last blog !! 4 days is quite a long time for me, considering the number of thoughts and Ideas that come to my mind in a single day. There is one true thing about blogging, most of the posts are written when blogger is not in his/her best of moods, same was with me, last 4 days have been good for me and even though I had so many good things to share, I didn't felt like writing coz I just kept thinking how can I write them "perfectly" !!!

There is one more thing I thought after reading so many other blogs, I wish to keep this blog always full of positive thoughts; motivating and learning experiences with some humors stories in between.As I wrote in this blog & this blog that i like to help people around me, I would make sure who ever read my blog signs off with a positive feeling about life and about himself, may be this is one of the reason I created this blog.

Anyways yesterday was "The Friendship Day" and it was one of the best that I had in last 4-5 years and the reason being I didn't remember it :D , though I was wished by a good friend of mine @ Midnight only but still it was not in my mind for rest of the day, I got calls from least expected school time friends and was really happy talking to them. It always feels nice when unexpected things happens, I used to expect calls n mszs when I was in college but yesterday I didn't expect any call and at the end I got a call from everyone :-)

Today, while sitting in office, don't know why but I wrote testimonials for two of my best friends of school time, their name being Tanay and Sanju. I met them 2-3 times in last 5 years but are still close to me and when ever we meet or talk, we just get on with things rather then complaining about not being in touch or whatever, and this is onething that I learnt from them and really feels lucky to have these friends !!!

There is another group of friends that exists in my life, the online ones, those whom I first met/talked on some messenger or on some social networking site. Out of those,there have been plenty whom I have met in real life also, some of them are still very good friends, I call some of them as my sister/brother and some being just in talking terms. There is onething that everyone who has/had an online friend would agree on and that is you can share your feelings, your thoughts, your secrets and your day to day life without much of hesitation (exception being your personal details). Once you get comfortable talking to him/her online, you feel there is a person who can listen to you without expecting much in return, you feel like being online at the time when your friend is, you just create another world of your own which seems to be more ideal for you then the real world, primarily coz you write the rules of that world and those rules are just applicable to you and no one else, you can break them, you can manipulate them and also you can have two different sides of you at the same time,talking to two different online friends.

In short you can just be the way you want to be rather then what you actually are and hence forth the online world seems to be more beautiful. But after being an active member of this online world for the last 4 years or so, I have found another thing in common between all the guys and gals, they all are "Insecured" , they seek for some one whom they can talk to and can share their feelings/desires, though the reason for this insecurity can vary, one seeks a brother or sister in a friend coz he/she is the only kid at her home and both the parents are working, other may be insecure because he/she is getting less attention from his parents as compared to other siblings, another one can just be the fear of talking and sharing things with parents or some one elder, one can look for a companion coz her/his friends have one and he/she cant find one of her choice in real etc

Even I was one of those insecured souls at one point of time in my life, and I did the same thing, or rather I perfected it to an extent !!! I don't have any hard feelings for the guys n gals who chats and believe in online friendship coz I know its in human nature to share things with some one, at least one person be it friend/sibbling/parents or just a pet, but then is it advisable to seek for that one person among thousands of strangers ?? There is just one percent chances that you get a right person to talk to, the main disadvantage of online chating/friendship is the rest of 99 % of conversations one have with strangers !! Thats where things get really bad or in common terms we call it "Bad Experiences", more n more of such incidences makes us feel very negative about the world around us and many of us grow with an "I Dont Care Attitude", this attitude is perfectly fine when it goes to cyber world but it does start affecting our day to day life n some how either we become very irritated and frustrated or we create a shell around us with restricted entry !!! In either case it doesn't do good to ourselves !!!!

Anyways, would just like to share that I have had my share of good and bad experiences, have managed to make some really good friends or rather friends for life. In the end, only thing that matters is what you learn from bad experiences and how to transform a good one to a better one !!!! So just be careful next time you talk to a stranger, never let him/her effect your life in a bad way !!!!

Happy Chatting, Happy Orkutting ....!!!!! Stay Happy and keep Smiling !!!!

Note - 1 : I was addicted to chatting @ one point of time !!!

Note - 2 : I am not a Chat Guru n Dont have any Fundae of my own, I was just 1% of those good people to chat to.

Note -3 : Nothing has been written in the blog keeping a single individual in the mind !!!

Note - 4 : Everything written is my own personal opinion/learning and by no means is intented to hurt any one's feelings

The Day that was !!! :-)

2008-07-31T14:39:00.000+05:30

I know you are smart enough to notice the difference between the tittle of previous post and this post !! But infact there is far more difference between the two posts rather then just the tittle, yesterday i was least enthusiastic about my work and today I was keen to work from the very beginning ,though I didn't, but ya its 7:45 in the eve and I am still in the office and I was working b4 writing this post. Today I'm feeling far more energetic and fresh then i was yesterday, and the main difference between yesterday and today was my attitude, yesterday I was confused and today I am far more clear in my thought process.While yesterday most of my time passed by doing nothing, today I tried to do everything right which could help me in over coming my problem.

I finally figured out my problem with the CAT's english and why I do blunders, so I hope I would improve on from here :-) I had a long talk with one of my oldest friend and felt really nice after that, it gave me lots of positive energy and it felt like things are automatically falling into the place. I had a nice sleep, a nice lunch and hopefully a nice dinner is waiting for me :D

I am not very excited but certainly I am more relaxed and I know what I am doing and what i need to do for the rest of day and more importantly I know how I will manage that. I read couple of blogs today and even though they were full of hatred and shear frustration , i could still comment to the blogger to think positive and to see positive side of everything. I read this blog and couldn't understand two things, firstly ...are people so frustrated with their lives that they enjoy reading articles/blogs which feeds them with more negative energy and secondly....is our life and surrounding so bad that we literally hate it !!! (( thirdly, why people comment only on a girl's blog :P ))

Anyways, my views towards life are completely opposite, I value everything that's there in my surrounding,I love myself and everything I do. I believe life is not about complaining and hating things, its about accepting the things they are, its about being flexible enough to adjust in every situation. Life gives you enough challenges and opportunities that if you value them and actually make them count, you would never complain about life being boring. We love far more people then we hate, then why do we need to think about later ones !!! Life is too short to hate some one or regret something, its about keeping a broad smile on the face and making everyone feel the same. Stay Happy and Keep others happy is my philosophy and would write more about it in an another blog.

I would end this post with one of my favourate line :

"World is a beauty-full place to live and we can make it even better only if we can see the beauty part of it"

The Day that Wasn't -- 29th July !!!!

2008-07-30T11:05:00.000+05:30

I had been thinking of writing about my "yesterday" from last 1 n half hour but as always, didn't know where to start from ...!!

Let me give another try... couple of things to start with , Firstly Its true that Blogging is an "Addiction" and I agree with that person who said this, I am saying this because its not even 12 hours when i wrote my previous blog and now sitting in my office I'm writing one more, don't know why but it really feels good !!!! Secondly,the tittle of the post is inspired from the show hosted by Cyrus Broacha which gets aired every sunday @ 10:30 in the morning on CNN IBN, the real name being the week that wasn't !!!

((This tittle might be repeated many a times in the future ))

Anyways,My day started with least enthusiasm, its been raining in hyd from last 3-4 days n since i love the rain, i didn't really feel like going to work but since college life is not as same as so called " Professional life", i got ready and reached office only to find out that my team leader or rather mentor is not present in the office and even though i could have worked on something, I just kept reading documents which were far more boring. You know this was one of those days when sitting idle was more tiring then working, so i got bored whole day and kept thinking about something which made me more sad and more depressed.In the mean while i read hell lot of blogs and added some nice ones to my "Blog List". By the time i got free from office, i was too tired and not in the greatest of moods to do anything substantial, so just sat in an auto and reached a place where i could walk to my house. Now a nice thing happened, there was this "bhutte" waala where i got down, so I asked him if he could get me one, so after selecting one of my choice he roasted that up by the same old traditional way, using coal and all. I handed him a 10 ruppee note and in return he gave me 9 Rs 50 Paise, knowing that the Butta cost 5 Rs each, so I just realized that he misplaced a 5 Rs coin instead of a 50 Paise coin,and then I returned him 4 Rs 50 Paise and told him to be careful for the next time !!! The incidence helped me to over come my sadness and felt a positive energy of doing something good !! I reached home, tried to study but couldnt, read news paper, and all that while I was thinking, why am i working in a field that doesn't interests me up, I know this is not the thing I want to do for long but somehow everyone asks me to be patient and continue with it till I get another opportunity. God knows when would that happen..!!!!

With not in a mood to do anything and not really feeling sleepy, I switched over to my best friend, "Internet and chatting" ; and came across this blog,I didn't find it interesting but was curious enough to ask the blogger about some interesting books which could help me in improving my english. So i switched over to gtalk in the hope that I might get some assistance or some positive response, and thank fully I got that, felt nice chatting with my first ever blog friend and some how my mood changed and I wrote this post for my blog which I think is the best one till now. Best coz its from my heart and really loved writing this one. By the time I was done with this post, i was almost asleep, so just forwarded the link to couple of friends and went to bed !!!

The day that wasn't started with a very low on energy, ended in a much needed positive way with a belief in myself that I am better ,as a person, as a friend & as a professional and there is no dead end, I just need to make my way through....!!!!

Cheers to life !!!!!!

Parents !!!!

2008-07-29T22:35:00.000+05:30

Yeah yeah I am writing this one, and its going to be a very senti one,atleast I want it to be that way. I wanted to write on this topic from the very day I made my first blog (which even i dont remember) but some how i was always short of words or rather there was so much to write and i just couldnt...!! Anyways..let me try now....

Its a human nature that everything which we think is ours by default, we take it for granted and it applies to most of us that we take our parents for granted. One more reason may be that we are seeing them from the day we opened our eyes and we feel they are with us for ever; so no matter what we do, they will be with us and in the process we do act the way we shouldn't. We shout at them,we hurt them, we never listen to them and we say that they dont understand us.

I still remember a story about my self, it was like 11 years ago when I was done with my 7th standard,it was my summer vacations and we went to some wedding,some where in Madhya Pradesh and since traveling by bus doesn't suit my mom, so My papa,My mummy and I were coming back by train, the place where we boarded the train had a small station and only local trains with all general boggies used to hault at the place, so we boarded the train in the night around 11 PM, the boggie was almost full with hardly any vacant seats, neither was any place on the floor. But some how we three managed to find a little space on the floor to sit through the night.(Ohh I forgot to mention that I'm a mummy's boy, being younger at the home I am close to my Mom and hence neither she could let me go with my other relatives in a bus nor i wanted to go). I still remember that for the first half an hour of the journet my Papa was all standing, mummy was sitting on the floor while i was made to sit besides another uncle in the train. As the night passed by, around 12:30 or so, I was feeling sleep and asked mummy for some water and also that i want to sleep now.I don't remember how but they asked some one on the floor to give some space to me so that I can sleep as comfortably as possible. So here I sleep on the floor of a general boggie's floor over a blanket my Mom carried, with my Mom sitting beside me in a very little space she can get. It was summer and its really hot in that part of India, so a news paper was used as an artificial fan for making me feel asleep.I dont remember when i felt asleep but i surely do remember is when I woke up in the morning,my mom was still sitting at the same place with the same news paper and on the other side of me, papa was sitting with a water bottle in hand and saw me with such a gentle smile on the face as if he had the most comfortable sleep.

I was too young to understand that because for me my sleep was the only thing I had in my mind, but when I look back now,memorizing that just one night,I cant control my emotions. This was just one of the millions of times when my parents would have considered my interest first before their own.

As a young kid, we would have asked our parents about one particular thing for hundreds of times, but now even if they ask us about something for more then 3-4 times,we feel irritated. Its so easy for us to say to our parents that they dont understand us, they dont let us do the things we want to, be it pursuing a certain career, throwing a party to friends or be it just another outing ....what we dont understand is the hundreds of sacrifices they would have made to let us reach to a point in life where we are able to speak of all this.

Its so easy for all of us to say things to them be it good or be it bad but its very difficult for us to understand their feelings when they get to hear that they dont understand us. What we also dont understand is that they care for us, everything they advice is for our good,following that advice is our choice but atleast we can listen to them in turn we react in such a strange way with so much annoying faces as if they dont know anything about this world and we are the only "wise and knowledgable bonds around".Do we ever think what would happen if our parents react the same way as we do when we speak loud at them ?? would we be able to live without that care,affection and the love??

I always ask my mom not to get tensed about me since i am staying away from home, I say many a times that i can manage my things now, and the only reply i get over and over again is "I wont understand untill I become a Parent" !!!!

I believe that our parents are far far far more valuable/important then just two persons who brought us in this world and took care of us and made us reach to a position when we can take care of them.We can never ever repay what they have done for us, we can only try to but we know it that we cant...!!!! But what we can certainly do is to make them realize that we have been brought up in the best possible way and we are proud to call them as our parents, we can certainly make sure that we dont hurt them with our words, we can have the patience to listen to them and learn from them...!!!! Now when I am in a position to, i really want to make my parents' life a heaven and it doesnt matter how much I need to work for that, i will do it...!!!!

They designed our past "completely" ;now its our turn to decide how we want to design a part of their present and future ...!!!!!

Note 1 : Word "we" is being used for general category of humans and doesn't refer to a particular group of people

Note 2 : The blog is not written to hurt anyone's emotions, and a big "Sorry" if any one is hurt by the content of blog.

Note 3 : Its never too late to ask for forgiveness from parents in case you ever hurted your parents and feeling guilty about it now.

Note 4 : The blog is not written for the sake of reading,commenting and forgetting, there is a big positive motive behind it.

P.S : Exceptions do exist, and there would still be a set of people who would take this post with negative intensions !!!! God bless them all .....

"Philosophy of Inspiration"

2008-07-29T10:30:00.000+05:30

I read the following article some where and felt like sharing it on my blog, if you can read the following text at one go with out getting bored, i am sure you have something in yourself that this blog talks about...!!!! All The Best and Enjoy :-)

Inspirational Life Quote

Those who are gifted with the power of inspirational thought get it from within themselves but it does not happen by accident. There is a method and a means to achieving this energy that can be had by anyone, no matter who you are. The power of inspirational thought comes from inside of each person no matter what their age, race, gender or personality type. All that is required is a determination to sit still and look deep inside yourself.

When most people decide to sit still and close their eyes, they see a series of thoughts and emotions flashing past their minds eye that seems virtually uncontrollable. Various ideas and thoughts may pop into your head which have absolutely no meaning and yet, you cannot stop the mind from running endlessly. As you continue to sit still and watch your thoughts and emotions, you will tend to lose track of what you are doing and get lost in your thoughts and feelings. If you manage to pay attention and watch yourself for a short period of time, you will see that you have very little control over what goes through your mind and when. Very few people can stand to sit still for very long and practice this. They tend to get bored or anxious or uncomfortable and they quickly open their eyes and go find something else to do. Why can not we sit still? What is bothering us so much that we always have to be moving around doing something each moment? DO we need more money? Do we need to talk to someone? Are we lonely or needing some form of entertainment every moment to keep ourselves happy? Very few people can actually stand to sit still with themselves and be contented. In fact, this power is something that many spiritual students strive for each day and is the source of everything that is inspirational in the world.

Inspiration to do great things comes from within but few people are actually capable of looking within themselves for any significant amount of time. Their attention is always thrown by one thought or another and they are back to doing the same old things that they have always done their entire life. If you are able to discipline yourself, however, to learn to sit still and to watch your thoughts and emotions as they pass by your minds eye, you will eventually become familiar with something very powerful deep within yourself. The energy of observation is a consciousness that exists inside of you and is actually the source of all your happiness and sadness, your joy and your anger, your fears and desires. It is the underlying source of everything you have ever experienced and it is an infinite energy which creates all the inspirational thoughts of the world.

As you devote yourself to practicing this new game, try to notice all the times when you feel like getting up and stopping this practice. Watch how your mind kicks and fights to gain control of you and to stop you from learning to be content with who you already are. Your ego does not want you to sit still and it will throw up every fear and rationalization it can invent just to get you out of your chair and back out into the rat race that you call "life". The real inspirational thoughts are the ones that come from deep inside your soul and can only be found through a lot of "soul searching". Search inside yourself each day for a certain amount of time and do not let your mind shake you from this task no matter what it may tell you is more important than this. Searching your soul is the most important thing you could ever decide to do but also the most challenging as well. Devote yourself to win at this game and you will soon discover an inspirational energy inside of you that you never knew existed. You will become one of the people who can deliver the inspirational thoughts that you have always hoped to find in other people.

For more reading check out the website : http://www.positivethinkingnow.com

Random Blog !!! --- I

2008-07-24T15:41:00.000+05:30

"Random Blog I" , because i am sure at some point of time I would write some more blogs like this.I was thinking of renaming it to "how stupid people can get -Part I" but then I didn't,don't know why may be coz I dont know the person I am about to write about.

So while writing another blog which i would post by evening I went for my lunch break to the Mcdonalds in our cafeteria (yeah yeah !!! we have mcdonals in our office's cafeteria) and there was this guy standing in front of me in the queue, he looked fairly educated,aged around 24,single and employed in some other company,he was accompanied by some "colleague" (yeah !!!! she was a gal) and here goes the conversation between him and mcdonald guy !!!

Mr X : Give me a Mcveggie,A medium Coke,A medium french fries and some potato xyz (I cudnt hear dat xyz)

McD Guy : Sir,would you like to go for the combo meal ? you can save 13/16 Rs ??

Mr X: What will this combo meal have?

McD Guy : Mcveggie Burgey,Medium Coke and A medium french fries !!

Mr X : So it wont have the potato xyz ??

McD Guy : No,it wont be there in the meal but you can take it separately,total will cost 99 Rs !! (Meal + Potato xyz)

Mr X (In an upsetting voice just like when a kid is being told for some chocolate): No, i want that potato xyz also, give me all these separately,the way i ordered !!!

(I was looking @ Mr X and smiling,Mr X could see me smiling @ him,I try not to make Mr X look stupid,but I can't control God Please help me !!!!)

McD Guy : Ok,Sir. Here is your order, Total of 112 Rs.

McD Guy : Sir,3 mins waiting for french fries.(fills up the coke n gets burger for Mr X,reaches for the try and put the burger over it)

Mr X : Give me the coke along with french fries,not now.

(Mr X's expressions were like,if u give me the coke now it won't be chilled by the time i get french fries)

McD Guy : Ok Sir (Takes the coke back,puts near the HOT pizza mcpuff's machine)

(Mr X goes to his seat to sit with his colleague, he starts with the burger while his colleague with potato xyz,I kept smiling so was the McD guy thinking about what was going through Mr X's mind)
(Mr X comes back,takes his not so chilled coke n french fries,goes back to his seat; little amused about why was i smiling)

(I go to another seat,have my burger thinking I'l surely write a blog about this !!)

P.S - 1 : I have no hard feelings for Mr X
P.S - 2 : The Colleague was a Gulti Gal
P.S - 3 : I am writing all this while sitting in my office !!! :-) and another blog too !!!

Note : Being educated in not a Sufficient condition for a person to have common sense !!!

Last Night !!!

2008-07-24T12:25:00.000+05:30

Wow, I seriously can't believe I am writing the blog with this tittle :D though i am sure it would be short of any "Explicit Content" !!!

For all those who expect this particular blog to be full of "ting tong" stuff (U know what i mean ;-) ), I would like to make it clear that neither did i make out with some one nor I spent last night at pub/disc/bar or else dream about some one;but ya something interesting happened, i had mood swings !!!

I came back from my office @ my regular time around 7:00 PM or so,bit tired after doing nothing much in office,had downloaded a movie couple of days back so just sat down and started with the movie "Jaane tu... yaa Jaane Na "..Since I am big fan of the work Aamir Khan does and the way he implement his ideas,I expected the movie to be fairly good. He was neither in the movie nor he was a director but this time he was a producer launching his nephew Imran Khan,but i believe it was his idea only.So the movie started with a video or rather a documentary,similar idea that he had implemented in TZP (it was in the end though) and the movie went on for 2 hrs 33 mins and i skipped my dinner :D
Now,i'm not going to narrate the story but would just add my perspective and the way i saw it.I liked the first half more the second half coz it had more lively characters with MEAOW's amazing dialogues "Fattu tu,Teri Maa,Tera Baap fattu,Tera poora khandaan and blah blah blah .....", that was awesome coz thats rare in bollywood's films.Anyways, there is one more reason why I liked the first half, the friendship between the two,the kind of chemistry they had and some how i felt I am somewhat like Ratss,non violent,good friend to have along side a gal ;-) ;little caring etc etc and even if i am not perfectly that way, i felt like being a best friend of some one like "Aditi" (Cute lil studpid daring gal) and ya "Just a friend" nothing more :D
The ending was similar to any bollywood masala movie,nothing special about it!!!!

It was around 10:30 or so by the time movie got over and was feeling very hungry,but there was nothing to eat @ my place and not even a single shop open, i had nothing to do except to surf net and read something interesting.So while surfing I came across one blog by Kanika Khurana (sorry i lost the link n couldn't find it again),she did her graduation/engg from somewhere in US,worked for sometime,did her MBA from stanford landed up into Google and still working there.Modelling was her passion and to be a Miss India International or something like that was her dream,she didn't win that competition but was able to come very near to her dream(won Miss Congeniality,Miss Best eyes etc). She is doing modelling as well as working with google.

After reading the blog,there was this question in my mind of "how much a person can achieve", "where does the inspiration comes from & etc etc" and after some thinking i realized, there is so much a person can achieve given the opportunities and resources/talent. What one needs is to put in efforts and keep working hard.After reading the blog I felt like I am so small in this world,with hardly 500 people knowing me and I still feel that I have achieved more then my parents and friends expect from me. There is so much I want to do in my life,I want to be at a position where everyone can recognize me and everyone who would have known me once can be proud of me. "Believe in youself" is the key, My parents expect me to have a safe future coz they care for me and they want me to be happy, its for me to manage my life in a way that they can be happy seeing me relaxed and comfortable with life and at the same time I need to keep working on my aspirations.

I can take any one of the path, either I can achieve what my parents and friends expect from me and be satisfied or I can work hard for my own "Expectations" which are much higher then the former one. The decision is entirely mine and I think I always choose the later option, I take my life as a challenge and do what ever it takes to come out winning !!!!

"Expectations" is a word that really confuse me at times, is it good to expect more from myself or is it good to be satisfied with what others expect from you !!!!

"Life is Endless Journey on a Pyramid where going up is always difficult and no matter how high you are,there is some one higher then you,its for us to either look Up to a few people and think that you are on the Foot of the Pyramid or look Down to far more people and think that you are on the Top"

Narcissist Speaks Again...!!!!

2008-07-22T14:16:00.000+05:30

I read my Previous blog and realized how little did i write about myself :D So here i go again....

I am a fairly independent self sufficient person who manages everything he needs to,in other words i am aware of my things/work and responsible towards them.I have always been this way from my very schools days and continued to be same during my college time.I don't hesitate to ask for help for the things out of my reach but if there is something i can do then i would give my 100%

I am an addiction and talking to me can be addictive @ times coz i have the patience to tolerate/listen all the crap and at the same time can give some practical advices. There is something which people find interesting about me,may be my attitude,my talks,my sense of humour or may be my philosophy for life !!!

I am indeed cute and innocent both by luks n by my talks so can get into gal's heart very easily ;-) Testimonials on my orkut account are just a small proof for that !!!

ohh i forgot something more,I am little intelligent and very sharp in my thinking,wiser then you can think of and mature then any one can make out from my voice.

I would close this blog by mentioning some of the best compliments i received from my friends and some strangers !!!

1) I am a very good person by heart
2) A very sweet guy, with a very strong will power
3) A friend u can trust and back up on
4) My online brother,Immensefully passionate
5) Never tries to be some1 hez not, Alvez his original self wid no artificial faces
6) Strong headed, determined, caring, loving, bindaas, sweet..has gr8 sense of humour and a really cute smile
7) Knows the rules of the big game n knows xactly how 2 achieve his goals
8) Great to chat with,as u wil never get bored,Guy got a life in him

Stay Happy n Keep Smiling !!!!

Narcissist Speaks !!!!

2008-07-21T19:22:00.000+05:30

Time around 3:30 in the afternoon.... Date : Around 30th Sept 2007....Venue : Some seat of IIT Delhi Library , See how accurately i remember everything :-)

Me and one of my good friend whom i shall call Maggie, were "Trying" to study and me disturbing her with my philosophy of life and blabbering about myself which gets irritating after a certain time,so out of shear frustration she speaks up "Chup Kar Narcissist" and trust me ...i gave her those weird looks since i didn't know what narcissist mean,so the first thing i ask her is the meaning and she started laughing !!! And since den she calls me "A Narcissist" ...that's how i got this weird tittle !!!! I tried to convince her that i'm not a narcissist,its just that i love myself and know myself better :-) but it didn't work out.

Though its little weird "title" yet some how I like it coz it gives me a freedom to speak about myself.So instead of wasting much of time and energy,let me get to the point :D

I am highly energetic person and My work comes prior to me,work bole to chatting,studying,games,movies,downloading,helping others etc etc.So i do stay awake till late and still manage to wake up early in the morning.I did that consistently while I was in college. I believe i'm a positive thinker and helping others comes naturally to me (Thanks to my mom for this),very good @ motivating others when they are down n out and trust me it gives the most happy feeling when someone says "thanks for being there". Being that sort of person helped me to make lots of friends who used to call me up in the middle of night and talk about their fights with bf/gf , about their exams and tensions in their mind and some how i used to calm then down with my stupid sense of humour which was nothing but using their own words with a different ascent or rather taking the literal meaning of the words or using an alternative idea of some arbit Flirting n stuff :D and don't know y i was tagged as "A Flirt" though i used/use this for their own good adulterated with some jokes n leg pulling.

Coming back to myself,since i am an aquarious so by default I am "Career oriented" though i hardly cared about it till i was 17.Discovered about my intellectual mind later on and have been doing fairly good since then.A bit emotional from inside and very few people in this world get to see that side of me.Ooppss i forgot the most important thing, I am honest and truthful hence everything written till now is correct to my knowledge and can be verified by any means/sources or by person !!!!

Thats it for now....Narcissist would speak more,some other day :-)

P.S :- "friend(s)" word used in the blog refers to people mostly from cyberworld

Note : A recent self constructed line that kinda suit me : I am sure no one has a crush on me coz as long as i remember,people only fall in love with me ;-)

18th July 2008

2008-07-19T18:58:00.000+05:30

Let me start with my fresh memories i.e about today, it 6:30 in the evening and I am still in the office, i am supposed to leave by now but m writing this blog, it just shows how much i am in love with this blog of mine :-)
After all i am trying to built this one from last 3-4 hours..searching google for the latest templates...trying to understand some html coding though i didnt understand a word of it.Also trying to make this pic which is there at the top of this page with what ever resources I had (M S Paint only)...

Now the amazing thing is I did all this while sitting in the office while my team leader is sitting right behind my back.Its been a month since I joined this company,I am still into my training period and M busy reading other blogs and trying to make one of my own, how Strange is that :D

ooopss i forgot that I was supposed to write about "the day", the boss is not here today, he is on n off to mumbai and since these are the most relaxing days of the year with no projects n much of internal work, everyone is doing time pass bole to coffee break n gossiping.Everyone was busy with this stupid questionare where there were like 100 odd companys' logos and they were searching google to find which one belongs to which company. I really don't know why they were wasting time on that !!!!! Besides usual lunch break I was out of office for couple of times doing nothing,just coz i was bored of sitting in front of computer...

I am suppose to learn a lot in this "training period" but with such a casual environment around me,I don't know why but i'm not utilizing my time efficiently...I know the problem is mine and I have to come over it but just not excited about this work....dont know why !!!!!!

One line that I read today "The best things in life come to you when you stop looking for them"

Let me know your point of view on this !!!!!

Stay happy and Keep smiling

Enjoy and Have fun !!!!

(Written on 18th, Posted on 19th)) :D

My First Blog !!!!!

2008-07-19T18:57:00.000+05:30

Now what do i write !! I have been trying to write a blog from like 3-4 years....wrote some ..deleted some..forgot passwords and blah blah.....but finally after reading other blogs from last one month and that too during my training period of my "First ever job", I have decided (Which i did many a times) to maintain a blog...

There is so much to write but for now I am confused of what to write...so wait for my next blog...!!!!!!!!!!!

Enjoy !!!!!!